I could have....

hollymlb · 11-03-2008, 12:07 AM

You know that girl that has made a major mess of her life and wow you always thuoght she'd be so much better than that but she just totally screwed everything up. And then she somehow crawled out of the hole she dough and is basically doing what you always thought she would be doing. You know living a decent respectable life, and your not sure what suprises you more the fact the she basically sent herself to hell or that she managed to come out of it better than before? That girl in my life is me.

I've been homeless and eating out of dumpsters, beaten, abused, had a gun to my head, raped, treated like trash, and more. Then on January 5, 2002 I lost my mind(tempary insanity) and tried to take my life. Luckily I woke up puking and realized what I had done. I spent the next weeks dealing with it all and that fall I started college. I began trying to repair the relationship between my mom and myself and got to experaince so many things taht I had never had the chance to before. I eventually dropped out because it just didn't fit my life anymore one of my favorite mistakes I've made. I should have made college the for runner in my life but if I hadn't dropped out who's to say if I would be where I am today. After college I begun working at a restraunt this was in July 2005. Then almost like a way to say see what you could have lost on January 5, 2007 I was asked if I was interested in becoming a manager. Exactly 5 years to the day of my suicide attempt. I have found a wonderful BF and we have been discussing marraige and kids we want 4 and he knows and except that we may have to adopt but doesn't want to get overly concerned about it until the time comes.

And all I can think is I could have missed this all and I'm so thankful I didn't.