I was 19 when I was diagnosed with pcos. It was unexpected but thank God the nurse practioner knew what she was looking for. I remember being shocked as I learned I could possibly have fertility problems. The thought of having that choice of having children taken away from me was horrible.
As I got older I was put on bc and metformin, that combo helped me have monthly periods. Im 25 now and though people say I look fine I don't feel fine. My weight is my worst issue. I have lost weight in the past but have put it back on. I try to eat right and do at least 45 min in cardio at the gym, but I have found that my weight Ive gained back has turned to mostly belly fat. I look like I m carring a bread basket on top of my abdomin!!
My frustration is unbelievable. I truly feel like giving up. I don't feel like any thing is going to come from my efforts.
Having PCOS is not a walk in the park, certainly. But you are among friends here who understand what you're going through by our own experiences.
Keep reading, keep writing and you'll find your way through all of this. We're here for you.
__________________ Amanda
31yrs old
dx Oct 2000
Treating PCOS through diet and exercise
Mama to Aerik (10) and Declan (4) and our sweet surprise, baby Jackson (11 months). All conceived naturally - Declan with the help of natural medicine.
First off have that cry if it will make you feel better. When I have a good cry I feel better afterwards. Like the PP said you are amongst great supportive women who are suffering right along with you.
It is very hard to lose weight. Some women have problems while on BCP's to lost weight. Others need BCP's to lose weight. I myself cant lose any if I am not on BCP. Also I have to be on a strict diet with very low calories to actually lose. But I lose fast that way.
I am so sorry you are feeling down. We all go through it. Hugs Hun
I have had that it's not fair feeling too. Especially when you are working your butt off at the gym, eating right, and gaining weight! It's hard to watch others who don't struggle with weight and eat like crap and talk about how they "should" go to the gym, but never do.
I work with students with disabilities. What I love about my kids is that even though the odds are against them, they come in to school everyday with smiles on and tons of enthusiasm toward learning! They have to work harder then typical students and learn less and forget quicker. It is a consistent struggle for them. I remind them everyday that they are winners as long as they always do their best. Life is not about how much you know, how fast you learn, OR in our terms how much you weigh or how easily you have babies. It's about doing your best and being the best person you can be!
Now with that said, it took me 2 1/2 years to realize that I wasn't living up to what I was telling my students. In fact, they were doing a much better job coping with their disabilities (which are much greater than my PCOS). In fact, it just hit me a week ago when one of my students died from MD. So, I work my butt off, eat right, gain weight, and stress over whether or not my current preg will turn into the baby I have been dreaming of for 3 1/2 years. BUT, I am NOT going to let it get me down anymore! I will NOT let PCOS define who I am. I do my best to control my weight and to have clear skin, but the jelly belly, big butt and pimples are not a personal reflection of who I am!
Let go of feeling responsible for what PCOS does to your body. Do your best for yourself everyday. Realize that your best will not always be 100% and that's OK!
Hang there! We are all here for you!!!
Amanda
__________________ Amanda (34) & DH (35)
ttc for 4 years
Femara,trigger shot,metformin,IUI-WORKED!
4/17/2008 Josie was born via c-section (vasa previa)
We have a boy coming in Feb, 2010! Conceived on Metformin alone.
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I have had that it's not fair feeling too. Especially when you are working your butt off at the gym, eating right, and gaining weight! It's hard to watch others who don't struggle with weight and eat like crap and talk about how they "should" go to the gym, but never do.
I work with students with disabilities. What I love about my kids is that even though the odds are against them, they come in to school everyday with smiles on and tons of enthusiasm toward learning! They have to work harder then typical students and learn less and forget quicker. It is a consistent struggle for them. I remind them everyday that they are winners as long as they always do their best. Life is not about how much you know, how fast you learn, OR in our terms how much you weigh or how easily you have babies. It's about doing your best and being the best person you can be!
Now with that said, it took me 2 1/2 years to realize that I wasn't living up to what I was telling my students. In fact, they were doing a much better job coping with their disabilities (which are much greater than my PCOS). In fact, it just hit me a week ago when one of my students died from MD. So, I work my butt off, eat right, gain weight, and stress over whether or not my current preg will turn into the baby I have been dreaming of for 3 1/2 years. BUT, I am NOT going to let it get me down anymore! I will NOT let PCOS define who I am. I do my best to control my weight and to have clear skin, but the jelly belly, big butt and pimples are not a personal reflection of who I am!
Let go of feeling responsible for what PCOS does to your body. Do your best for yourself everyday. Realize that your best will not always be 100% and that's OK!
Hang there! We are all here for you!!!
Amanda
That was one insipirational post. It made me cry, smile and a bit motivated to believe that I will not let myself to be defined by PCOS but rather who I am actually.
I am at cross roads at the moment. My endo says I am NOT a PCOS because my insulin level is ok and my u/s is clear. My testosterone is high which he gave me Yasmin for and said using it for 6-8 months will clear all my problems. Isnt that a lie now ?
I show all the symptoms, i feel like crying at times that although IF I am a PCOS atleast I should get doctors that are sincere to me and willing to help.
Dearest rheaj,
I am at the same position as you. The thought of having fertility problems is just so heart wrenching. All my life if I ever was passionate or really happy were the moments around kids. Not only my nieces and nephews but even if I go out to mall etc. I never stop admiring the beautiful angels people are blessed with.
I hope PCOS doesnt get that hard on our lives. Hang in there hun ! We are all here for you.
Sending hugs your way
Not being able to lose the weight, to keep it off, is horrible and frustrating and just plain depressing!!!
Does your gym have a physical trainer? If so, maybe a session with one to see if they have any bright ideas. Do you do any weight training or just cardio?
I found that the cardio helped me tone up, but the weight training made much more progress in dropping weight....it burns more calories.
I hope that you find what works for you! Hang in there...
I completely understand what your saying. I've said that before. Wanting to scream and shout and THROW A FIT!!! So many of us understand what your going thru. Don't give up!!
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Just remember too, even though you have PCOS you can still have children. Sometimes we just have to go about it a different way than other people do. It doesnt make it wrong, just different.
I would also suggest that cry. I have days when I cant stop crying and other days I get really mad that i have PCOS. It happens and you just have to roll with it.
Remeber also that we are always here to listen. This is a great website and there is a lot of helpful info!!
rheaj, it does suck being young (I'm 22) and realizing that there's a possibility you may not be able to have kids. It makes you question a lot about yourself and relationships especially. And it's particularly brutal to get that hopeless feeling that nothing you do will fix or even help it. But it's not true. Honest. Hang in there, it does get better. I'm sure it does.
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"I've tripped again and things are starting to get interesting..."
Quote of the day: "When my eyes get all glazed and my head starts bobbing, don't try to listen for the music. There is no music. There is just me. I'm dreaming."
I feel the same way most of the time! When I was diagnosed at 21 (I'm now 23) I was #1 relieved to know that feeling so crappy and the weight gain was not all in my head and then #2 shocked when my doctor handed me phamplets (sp?) on infertility. I felt like man, it just never gets better does it? I had never considered not being able to have kids. Watching my friends and siblings get pregnant and have children is hard because I want to know the feeling of having a my baby growing in my body but knowing there is a possibility I can't.
And the excercise thing is my mortal enemy. I hate doing it and it never does me any good appearance wise.
You'll have your bad days and you will have your good. But the bad days make the good ones feel amazing. Don't give up!
__________________ Micah (23) Andrew (22)
Married September 2006
Diagnosed with PCOS 2004
Medications:
Metformin
Yasmin
Current height/weight:
5'5" 200lbs
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I could just cry 
BUT, I am NOT going to let it get me down anymore! I will NOT let PCOS define who I am. I do my best to control my weight and to have clear skin, but the jelly belly, big butt and pimples are not a personal reflection of who I am!
