I am so angry, hurt, and just an emotional mess. This past week it was a year ago I m/c. I have totally shut down. I have cried more in the past week, screamed till I am hoarse and just so unbelievably heartbroken. I wasn't this way at all a year ago. I was so proud of 'keeping it together', it has just slammed me. I didn't think it would be like this. I thought I would be stronger and never even once thought it would be like this. Grief, once again, has totally taken me off gaurd. Does it ever get better? Does time really take away this hurt?
Lori
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I'm also very sorry. I remember my one year too, and my husband was travelling at the time. I didn't even realize it was coming up until a day or two before. It was very difficult to go through those few days alone.
Ironically, I gave birth to my son the day after the m/c date. But I think I've finally found peace. It's been a few years, and despite the pain and grief I always know will be there, I've finally found somewhere to tuck it away, and know peace again. I hope this for you when your time comes.
Sincerely,
Diamond
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Thanks Diamond and Pam. This past week has been torture but I am slowly getting back into the swing of things and feeling better about everything in general.
Diamond~ I am sorry you had to deal with your emotions all by yourself. You must be one tough cookie, I don't think I could have made it without my dh and you cysters. I am so glad you have found some peace, I wish that for all of us.
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I'm still bouncing back and forth between the anger and sadness. This sucks so much, and I wish I could wave a magic wand and make us all feel better.
I hope you quickly find a way to hold on through this time.
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Lori,
The bad days still come and go, and that's how grief tends to work, but fortunately you have a place to come and air these feelings and know that you aren't crazy or abnormal. We care and understand. I hope that this anniversary is a milestone for your progress and that the second year is much easier. Time can be our best friend sometimes. We will always remember, but I think the pain is less excruciating as time passes.
((Hugs))
Wishing you comfort,
Sheri
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