I went to the hospital today to meet the birthmothers social workers and see the baby, WELL, yesterday they told me he's not eating like he's suppose too and he probably would not come home today unless he started eating. He started eating yesterday pretty good and they said they had to do an ultrasound of the baby's head and that looked fine. SO WHAT HAPPENS I am on my way to the hospital and my social worker calls me and tells me the baby has something called floppy arms and his eyes are rolling down, up, to the sides and that should definately not be happening. SO I decide I'm not sure if I should accept this situation because now they want to keep him a few more days and have him checked out by the Neurologist and see what is really going on with him they said when he was first born he had respiratory distress, then was having a hard time with feedings and know thisMy little sister gets in the car after school today and says YOU GOT THE BABY and my mom tells her No she's not sure what she's going to do because he may be sick and my little sister says "WHAT KINDA MOTHER ARE YOU????" Me being upset already busts out crying and really questioning myself BUT is it wrong for me wanting to be sure I get a healthy baby. This will be my first child and I'm nervous I have been contemplating just accepting him and praying everything works out. I even held him and rocked him for along time today until they told me I had to leave so the specialist could take care of him. I feel so bad leaving him by himself I am thinking about calling the SW and telling her I want him.


My little sister gets in the car after school today and says YOU GOT THE BABY and my mom tells her No she's not sure what she's going to do because he may be sick and my little sister says "WHAT KINDA MOTHER ARE YOU????" Me being upset already busts out crying and really questioning myself BUT is it wrong for me wanting to be sure I get a healthy baby. This will be my first child and I'm nervous I have been contemplating just accepting him and praying everything works out. I even held him and rocked him for along time today until they told me I had to leave so the specialist could take care of him. I feel so bad leaving him by himself I am thinking about calling the SW and telling her I want him.
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Becky 2/28/01
