I don't know what is going on ...........

Celtra · 04-15-2003, 08:47 AM

I already posted this in the pregnant cysters forum-- people are looking just no responses.......... has anyone here been through anything similar??? Right now- yes, I'm looking for hope- and trying to remain hopeful..... but at the same time, I don't want to fool myself and hang on to something that just isn't going to happen. The waiting right now is the worst---- I don't even know how I should be feeling right now........... anyways- this is my post.........

I'm not even sure where I should post. I don't know if I should be here or over in the mc board. Yesterday I went for another beta--- and ultrasound and was not given much hope. My beta was 2900 on Thursday and only 4200 on Monday. P4 dropped from 17 to 12 last Thursday and it will be another day or so before I know the p4 results from Monday's lab. The ultrasound showed- thankfully that it was not a tubal pregnancy---- my baby is in the uterus. However, it's measuring only 5w1d --- by dates I'm around 7 weeks---- that doesn't bother me so much because my cycles are screwy anyways- and dates are always off. The doctor told me that the gestational sac is not shaped right-- one edge is either collapsing or is being distorted because I have some bleeding around the sac. They did see a fetal pole and a yolk sac... but it's too early yet to see any heart beat. I'm trying to remain hopeful----- I'm not bleeding - I'm not cramping--- I haven't even spotted. I still have all of my symptoms. I know my numbers aren't that great but it seems that if this were really over the numbers wouldn't go up anymore. I thought about p4 support after I got off the phone with my Dr---- I don't know if it will help but it certainly can't hurt. I feel like I need to do whatever I can......... a friend of mine who is also pregnant- and on progesterone gave me six days worth of prometrium. I took a dose last evening and will speak to my doc this morning to see if he will write a rx. Has anyone been through anything similar?? This is such a nightmare......... I don't even know how to feel right now-- I'm pissed and sad but then I know I need to try and remain positive if my little baby is still in there trying to make it......
I hope I didn't post this in the wrong place............. I'm just so scared and am trying to find any ray of hope right now that I can.
Thank you for listening. I'm hoping for another miracle and that this little bub will hold on---- doc says he will scan me again on Friday to see how things are going. Please pray for us.

STINA · 04-15-2003, 08:59 AM

Hi Celtra.

All that I can say is that I am praying for you. I really do hope that your wee bub wants to stay in his mummys tummy.
I miscarried on saturday night and had to have a D&C yesterday, but although I only knew for a week that I was pg, I knew something was wrong as I was bleeding but the dr said that could happen and really bad cramps. As you said you dont have any of these and that you just have early pg symps ( I think). Unless you start to suffer any bad symptoms then I think you'll just have to wait till friday and see how your scan goes.

I promise my fingures are crossed for you

Stina, xx

Celtra · 04-15-2003, 11:01 AM

I'm so sorry about your loss Stina. Thank you for answering my post in your own time of grief. I wish you a speedy recovery !!

Louie · 04-15-2003, 11:20 AM

Celtra, I am so sorry to hear that you are going through this. I can relate, as I had similar signs of gloom prior to each of my m/c's. It is frightening and hard to remain hopeful. My first m/c had slow rising betas and low progesterone and my second had a small and strangely shaped sac. These are not great signs, but I still really hope that you will try to hold onto hope and remember that often there is a happy ending.

I would definitely take progesterone support, but remember that progesterone is a hormone that has peaks and dips and your low reading could have just been taken at a low point. The beta rise was a bit less than optimal, but beta does slow down as the number gets past 1200 so it doesn't seem too gloomy.

You should drink lots of water just in case the odd shaped sac is due to insufficient amniotic fluid... and possibly even go stand in a pool for 1/2 hour (sounds odd but "deep water immersion" is supposed to help increase the fluid in the sac). At least you will feel like you are doing something to help and if it doesn't help it certainly can't hurt. Also, try to be sure you are getting excellent attention from your doc and take very good care of yourself. Are you IR and if so are you on Met? This can help prevent m/c, though I don't know if you should start during pr. Baby asprin daily can help too, if you're not already taking that.

I am so sorry and I will be praying for you and baby. Hopefully all will be ok, but if not please know that we are all here for you.

Celtra · 04-15-2003, 11:37 AM

Thank you Louie for all the wonderful ideas ---- I am IR and am kicking myself because I ran out of my met and didn't take it for a few days.... of course I am back on it now.

I don't know what I would do if I didn't have sc to come to and post every little fear and question- I think I would be crazy by now.

Thank you again......

Delila · 05-06-2003, 01:43 PM

I just found out some similar news and also wasn't sure where to find information on it. I was told I was pregnant and three days later I was told that the numbers didn't move like they were supposed too and I would have an early mc or ectopic preg. They have been doing bloodwork a few times a week and although my levels were increasing they were not increasing at the right rate.. For the past 2-3 weeks I have just been waiting to mc or find out it is ectopic.. I even started lifting things and went back to normal activity to try to bring it on. now this morning I went for my second ultra sound and it confirmed it is not ectopic and the dr. even saw a sac.........and to my amazment the doctor said now that they are sure it is not ectopic the pregnacy could go either way??? The nurse used the words causiously opptimestic...or guarded optimism..... I don't no what to think now.....I have another ultra sound and exam in two weeks....my bloodwork results are due this afternoon......has anyone else had really slow rising levels in the beggining and gone on to have a normal pregnancy......please let me know I am totally confused. Thanks