i was dx with PSTD a few years ago after my accident. they told me i was normal and that what i was feeling was not unusuall for ppl who have gone what i have gone though put me on prozac and sent me on my way that made me feel even more angry. then i tried Kloinpin (sp?) and that made me feel wonderful, however i never went back to the guy who told me i was "normal" so i couldt get anymore after i ran out. well i was doing find up untill a few weeks ago. i dont know if it is the lac of sun or what. (i started tanning just to see if that was it and no luck so far). I hate my job, i was forced in to the positon after mine was eleminated soon after i moved 5 hrs north. so im stuck in a town that i use to LOVE, and in a job that i hate bc there is no where for me to go. i feel like eveyone hates me at work, bc everytime i walk away then come back i feel like everyones convo stops Im just so put off by this i have to drag my self out of bed everday that i have to work. i made a dr appt for tuesday to see if i can get more kloinpin but i have a feeling that she is going to make me talk to someone... i know what will make me feel better but till july moving inst really an option (darn leases) I just want to be around ppl who actually care about me rather then slandering me or whatever everytime i work.
thanks again for listening im not really sure what else to do i have tired to be nice to everyone but i dont think it is working.
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Surprise BFP on 4/4
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Dx with GD 9/10
Induction Date: 12/7
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Secondly, you mention your psychiatrist recommending you "talk to someone" as if that's a bad thing! Can you tell me more?
To me, talk therapy is an essential part of the process. I think it's irresponsible to prescribe psychotropic meds without making sure the patient is committed to outpatient therapy at least once every few weeks for the first few months of treatment.
Klonipin isn't a drug to take lightly. Addiction is widespread and can hit someone pretty quickly. Also, klonipin isn't usually a first choice for anti-anxiety since it packs quite a punch. Your provider must have seen some significant anxiety in you to prescribe that pill off the bat.
Regardless of all that stuff I just typed, I'm sorry you don't feel comfortable at work. Trust me, I have moments where I feel like I have no friends and everyone is talking about me. It takes EVERY bit of strength I have to get out of bed and face my peers. I'm getting ready to write about that in a minute...
However, once I do it, and I see that they aren't the scary monsters I made them out to be, I feel so much better. In fact, they are often my best support sytem.
Talk to someone. It can't hurt. Especially if you are stuck there anyway.
I don't think pills are a cure all. In fact, I have pills, and I'd rather talk to someone ANY DAY than take a pill.
Thanks... I got the pills i was surprised she gave them to me right away too... I have tried to talk.. to everyone who would listen. everyone just says im crazy. i told her i really didnt want to go talk to someone about it bc i feel like i know what i have to do to fix it. i just have to waite till july to do it. all i know is that i have to get back home by my family. the sepeartion is just too much. for some reason im not sure why the Klonpin is the only thing that helps me control my unnessary anger. and i say it is unnessary bc after i say things right away i know it was wrong. and i cant always walk away from the situation and calm down... and it is always worse when i work with this one girl... i swear my sisters have been giving her tips on how to push my buttons LOL anways thanks all of you for listening... it helps a lot and a lot cheeper then going to therpy!!
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Surprise BFP on 4/4
TEAM GREEN
Dx with GD 9/10
Induction Date: 12/7
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What is the 7/7/7 birth control pill you are on? Are the pills 3 or 4 different colors? I'm thinking it is a triphasic pill, which are just awful, especially for PCOSers. Monophasic pills give you a steady dose of hormones so you aren't so up and down emotionally and your ovaries stay suppressed better. Good pills for PCOSers are: Ortho Cyclen, Yasmin, Ovcon and Modicon. I know first hand how the wrong pill can cause immediate depression. Ortho Cyclen sank me into a dark hole within days of starting it.
Good luck!!!
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yeah 7/7/7 is midicon same thing i loved it!!!! my periods were normal and i never had this problem with yuckie AF or cysts issues so i hope that i can get back to where i was last summer soon
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Surprise BFP on 4/4
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((((mandie))))
i'm soo sorry you are going through this. i know exactly how you feel about hating work... or atleast feeling as though everyone is talking about you when you leave. i had that type of anxiety all throughout high school, infact, that is what caused me to drop out
i can't offer you any good advice, only my ear and shoulder. i am here for you if you need anything girl. you have my number!
(((hugs))))
Tara
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How frustrating for you to be away from where you feel loved and stuck in a job where others are not warm and friendly!
I've been in a similar situation. What helped me was having a friend join me for lunch _out of the office!!!_ about 1x per month. Do you have any outside friends that you can meet for lunch?? We share each other's burdens, tell each other how unfair things are and feel validated...which is what all of us need and want at some points in our life. .. Validation
Well, girl. here is YOURS!....
Those people are mean and rude. If you find a friend there, cherish it.-who knows, it might happen! If you don't --look outside for good things and good people and baby, take that job and shove it, when you get to move---and don't look back! LOL
How frustrating for you to be away from where you feel loved and stuck in a job where others are not warm and friendly!
I've been in a similar situation. What helped me was having a friend join me for lunch _out of the office!!!_ about 1x per month. Do you have any outside friends that you can meet for lunch?? We share each other's burdens, tell each other how unfair things are and feel validated...which is what all of us need and want at some points in our life. .. Validation
Well, girl. here is YOURS!....
Those people are mean and rude. If you find a friend there, cherish it.-who knows, it might happen! If you don't --look outside for good things and good people and baby, take that job and shove it, when you get to move---and don't look back! LOL
It is and no i dont really have any friends out side of work here... they all live at least 5 hrs away the meds are really working but i do need to take them before i go to bed from now on bc im so cranky in the am before i take them... i just hate it. I LOVE the area up here i have been Vac up here since i was 2 weeks old i just dont want to settle here right now.... i want to just be a number again.
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Surprise BFP on 4/4
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Dx with GD 9/10
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I to understand had a job and the boss hated me, they don't understand that with pcos your not always happy but at least your willing. I just wanted you to know you are for from alone if you want to chat let me know.
Your very welcome. If you need to vent or sound off anything just let me know its always nice to have someone who will listen. Just don't give up. Something I telling myself everyday is I will press forward, I will do my best and that is all I can do. Hopefully that was some encouragement. Maybe someday I'll tell you how the boss kept the guy with the jack-knife and let me go. It is a true story it wasn't just once the guy had the jack-knife.
It doesn't sound good does it!
I hope you have a great day!
i dont know what to do next 
Im just so put off by this i have to drag my self out of bed everday that i have to work. i made a dr appt for tuesday to see if i can get more kloinpin but i have a feeling that she is going to make me talk to someone... i know what will make me feel better but till july moving inst really an option (darn leases) I just want to be around ppl who actually care about me rather then slandering me or whatever everytime i work. 
