I feel like PCOS has really screwed up my life I am so upset that I let my PCOS symptoms get this bad. I have been telling the doctors that something was wrong for years, but since one of my main concerns was weight gain, they never took me seriously. I had to see so many dr.'s before someone finally knew anything about pcos.
Now I'm a newlywed... I'm 25 and my husband and I have only been married for a year and a half. Unfortunatly for him, we got married before I gained 60 pounds, grew facial hair and learned that it will be really hard for me to get pregnant. PCOS has affected my confidence and my body image, but worst of all, it affects how he sees me. Hubby is trying to be supportive, but we haven't had sex in four months. He's even told me that he doesn't find me sexually attractive anymore (not in a mean way, but still he says what he feels). Then, to make matters worse, I was trying to track down a recipe i found last week in the computer's history and I came across *you know what*. I'm not anti dirty pics, but I was jealous of these internet girls!
I guess that's my biggest concern, but i'm also so upset at the way I look in photos, and how I can never find anything to wear that fits well. I'm not even thinking about how hard it will be to have a baby.... we'll save that for a few years from now.
I know I'm venting a ton, and sorry you all have to put up with my crazy message, but I was hoping someone had some advice... I feel really lost and don't know if it is every going to get better. |