I have been flip-flopping btwn meds lately as Celexa wasn't working anymore. I went on Effexor XR and I was almost suicidal. Then discovered that my bcp was also affecting mood and giving me migraines, so that went out the window. Now I am back on Celexa at a higher dose and take clonazepam and ativan for the anxiety, and started Met to help with PCOS. Yesterday I was prescribed Epival for migraines and Pantiloc for permanent gut rot. I HATE taking so many meds! Anyone in the same boat? How do u reconcile yourself with it? I feel like I will never be med free.
Thanks for listening!
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I feel the same way. I am on so many meds and I haven't even been diagnosed with PCOS yet so those meds are probably going to add a whole nother list to my already growing list. It is hard but I get used to it.
One of my things is OCD and I obsess about the side effects and what the drugs may do to me down the road. It's a pain in the butt to have to calculate how and when you will do things around when meds are needed. One of mine is a liquid and I have no idea how I am supposed to take it with juice at the prescribed time so that it doesn't interfere with the other drugs. . .blah blah blah
Power to yah pill popping cysta!
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I was diagnosed around a year ago. Until then, I'd been trying to get off my meds for depression and anxiety. Frankly, I'm tired of overnight visits to the psych ward. It always seemed like I was beating myself up for needing those meds.
But when I got the PCOS diagnosis, the number of meds more than doubled. I hated it at first. But eventually I realized that I'll be on these meds for the rest of my life. I don't want to go back to being depressed. The memory of the debilitating pain is almost unbearable(unbareable? I can't spell.).
If someone you loved had a chronic or terminal condition that required medications and he or she wanted to get off the meds, what would you say to him or her? You'd want them to stay on the meds so they had better quality of life and live longer!
Well, *you* deserve the same thing! Not taking meds for PCOS may mean your depression will continue to spike when you least expect it(been there. done that. stained the tshirt with excess sweating.).
That's how I finally became comfortable about taking so many meds. I know someone with UC (ulcerative colitis) that pops pills all day long. I wouldn't want her to quit! I just remind myself that my health is worth as much as hers.
YOUR health is worth just as much!!
Thank you for your sweetness. It is really hard to decide that I am worth it. I was talking to dh about just that last night.
I am a cutter and unfortunately when my moods go wonky so does my need to self-destruct. The whole thing is trying to find what works. It is a painful process in that I have tried 6 different drugs in 4 months, none of which were effective or they sent me manic/suicidal.
I started the Met 2 days ago as well as Epival. Now I am going to add the liquid iron on this weekend (I have to take it 4 times a day). Then after the weekend I am going to hopefully make it up to my full dose of Celexa. It is so daunting. I feel like an old person, not a 32 yr old woman in the "prime of my life".
Thanks for your support!
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Oh my word. *hugs* Your words brought tears to my eyes. I'm so sorry you're going thru this. Please keep fighting! Once your doctors find the right combination of meds for you, you're going to feel alive again. I am a (recovered) cutter. The medications and counseling have just about cured me of that. But occasionally I feel like doing it. I exercise. I watch funny videos. I go visit someone so that I'm not alone. When the urge passes without me cutting, it's a feeling of victory that makes me want to dance and shout.
Just because you have an illness doesn't mean you're not worth all that medication. =) Keep fighting!
I feel like a walking pharmacy! 
