I had a bad day

sinnie · 09-18-2007, 10:14 PM

My father died at a young age, 3 yrs ago in Dec. He died of lung cancer and died within 6 months of being diagnosed. It was a painfully slow agonizing death that destroyed his mind before he went.

I was listening to some music today and just started bawling. I literally sat on the floor and cried like a baby, whining about how I wanted my daddy. I miss him so much.
I don't know if the pain of his loss will ever lessen. I even cried thinking giving up an arm just to have him back for one day would be a bargain. Selling my soul, being paralyzed, losing my husband, I would gladly go through all 3 to bring him back.
I was just thinking of the worst possible things I would endure to bring him back.

I guess I'm just venting a bit here after having a bad day. I'm usually not like this, it just hit me today and I'm really down.

ScreamingBeauty · 09-18-2007, 10:46 PM

hey hun

i'm sorry you had a bad day. my little sister died when she was 16 very suddenly. I understand how u feel completely and just wanted to let you know you're not alone. I often think about all the things i would give up to have her back and hate that it doesn't work that way. I don't believe these wounds every fully heal but in a matter of speaking, we learn to walk with a limp i guess. I hope tomorrow is better for you.

*hug*

Pamster · 09-18-2007, 11:58 PM

*hugs* I hope that you feel better