Hello everybody,
I recently been diagnoised with a having a multinodular goiter and since it is pushing against other organs in my neck, I will have to have a total thyroidectomy

. I will have to take thyroid hormones indefinitely and will have a permanent scar on the base of my neck. This was 2nd to the worst case scenario for me; the first is it being cancerous. It seems like I inherited all the endocrine disorders from the women in my family (on both sides!). I hate to be depressed, but I am incredibly depressed. My doctor cut our consultation short due to me breaking down during her telling me news. I still don't know if it is cancerous or not. I pray it is not. It will be a 2-3 hr surgical procedure and will require an overnight stay in the hospital. It is a very complicated and intricate procedure as one slip can damage my voice forever. I'm scared and angry at the same time. However, I am very thankful for all the support I've received so far from friends and family. It is amazing! I have a lot of prayers going up for me. But, it just makes me wonder, what next? What could possibly go wrong next? I'm trying to stay positive but I don't think I can now. I'm scared of passing all my genetic nuisances to my future girls.
If you can, please say a prayer for me. I'm only 31 and it seems like ever since I hit my 30's everything bad is popping up. If it’s not this, it's that. I'm just tired of my body failing me. I don't know what I can do to help it more

. If anyone has experienced this, please lift me up. I need all the positive stories I can hear. There can never be too many stories. Also, I think I did the worst thing you can do...I went to Youtube and saw a live procedure, unfortunately. All that did was scare me more, but I was curious. I've been doing research and all I keep hearing is, or what is sticking out to me the most, is cancer, radioiodine ablation, cancer, radioiodine ablation! That's nothing you want to hear being associated with your problems. The only thing that can come good from this is having my regular voice back (it’s now more raspy and hoarse than it normally is), I will be able to project my voice better and sing high notes better, I won't have the lump feeling in my throat (which is a biggie), and, well, that's it. Okay, well maybe one more, hopefully, with the thyroid medicine my hormones will be more regulated and will allow for weight loss, since my thyroid caused weight gain. I don't know if it will help my PCOS? I've been trying to find research that correlates the two, anybody know? I went to PubMed but, again, was distracted by articles that I should not have been reading. It seems like I gravitate to all the bad articles almost to prepare me for the worst case scenario, but I shouldn't do that and I will stop.
Sorry for such a long post. I will keep you all updated on any news or surgery dates. I'm in my last week of finals and this is not a great time to receive this type of news. I can't really concentrate on my studies, but I have to find a way to. Well girls, thanks for listening and if you have any experiences with this, advice, ANYTHING, please let me know. I appreciate you all so very much!!