I have to start taking better care of myself (long)
Well, here I am...back again. The last time I was active on this board, I was getting my life back together. My diabetes was under excellent control, my androgens were low (though not normal) and I was flying towards my target of my weight goal of 150 lbs.
Alas, no more. I believe I've just experienced the most stressful 6 months of my life:
- I completed my BA, including a stressful 100 page research project and a round of comprehensive exams
- I had to wait for the results of the completion of my BA
- Both of my paternal Grandparents became ill, suffered for 2-6 months, drove my father to exhaustion, and then passed away two months apart from each other.
- I moved 3,500 miles away from my parents, friends and family in the UK so I could settle with my husband in New York
- I spent a month job hunting, then had all the stress of starting a new job, in a new city.
I neglected my health. I always felt guilty about it...not testing my BG, not eating healthily, not doing my exercise...but I just felt like I was already carrying the stressload of two people and that if I tried to manage my health issues, I'd explode. So I ignored it.
Until this week. I recently went to the doctors to establish myself there. They took my weight and I'm back up to 200lbs. I'm so angry with myself. I can't believe I've allowed myself to put on a third of what I'd managed to lose...all that hard work exercising and eating well. A lot of my clothes are feeling tight or don't fit...I need to do something. They also did bloodwork. I haven't had the results of that just yet, but I highly doubt that it will be good. I haven't even been taking my metformin during this whole charade.
So I'm back. I'm humbly asking for your support and apologizing for disappearing for so long. I could use all the help you care to offer right now...the hardest part for me is having to re-educate myself all over again. Learning which foods are low GI here in the US...which brands are better, learning a new form of food packaging. I know it shouldn't sound like a difficult thing to do but believe me, I'm struggling. I broke down in the supermarket the other day, from a combination of homesickness and not knowing if there was a single brand of bread that I could eat in the place...
So I'm reach out to you all...and hoping that, at the same time, I can give you all the love and support that you have all given me so freely in the past.
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it takes time to adjust here. the supermarket is the hardest. reading labels seems endless but in the end, it is worth it for you. sometimes when i get tires of reading the labels, i make my own. the best bet here is to stick the perimeter of the stores and ignore the aisles. lots of fresh fruits and veggies and less likely to fall into the high carb trapped aisles.
Steph
Wow - you've been through a lot! I had a similar setback over the past year (moved to a new state, had to find a new job three times, suffered a miscarriage), and I also added back almost all of the weight I had lost, and all of my healthy eating and exercise habits went out the window. So you're not alone!
I'm also in the process of trying to figure out the low-GI stuff....and I don't know what kind of bread I can buy, either! It is really intimidating just to look at all of the choices.
(((hugs))) Hope things get better as you get settled in. If you can, try to take some time for yourself each day - you deserve it! Also maybe put a priority on starting some exercise again - not only does it help with the weight/PCOS/insulin issues, but it can be a big stress relief, too. I know, I know - it is all easier said than done - but maybe we can all encourage each other!
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If you would like a chat, i did the same as you, i moved from the UK to Virginia, as my husband was in the USA Air Force. Its a big big change this side of the water.
I am the same as you have to get myself sorted.
Where abouts in the UK was you from?????? Nice to see some also made the big jump and left everyone one behind. I am going home this Xmas, not been to my mums for Xmas in 5 years. My dad has not seen my boys for 5 years. He came over just after we moved here just to check the place out.
But i no how lonely it can be being away.
I have now got skype, so i can call home for 1c a min. Also talk on the net with the web cam.
I have to start taking better care of myself (long) 
