It's been a really long road to PCOS for me. I've been gaining weight pretty steadily since December. During the summer I read an article in a health magazine about underactive thyroids and the symptoms for it and stuff. I had quite a few of those symptoms, so I went to the doctor for that. It took a while to get the bloodwork done because my mom didn't really believe that I had a problem. She thought I was pregnant. (but of course, why would I tell her I was skipping periods if I was pregnant?) The bloodwork showed that my thyroid was fine. I was due for an ob/gyn appointment anyway and I brought up my symptoms of weight loss, irregular periods (the last 3 periods I had decreased in length, and the last one I only bled for a couple hours), I was tired all the time, I was getting a moustache and my arms and hands started getting hairier, I was getting pimples more often, where before I would get one like every other month, I had to wash my face many times a day. I had bloodwork done for that a couple weeks ago and the results came back today. She told me that her suspicions were right and that I should make another appointment after my next period's supposed to end (it looks like I'm going to skip it again).
I'm scared and relieved. I'm relieved that this mess is over. I'm relieved that there's a reason for a 65 pound weight gain. I'm relieved that I'm finally figuring out what's wrong with me. I'm scared of what's going to happen. I'm scared that I won't be able to have kids. I'm scared that I'm going to be stuck weighing 235 pounds. I'm scared of the possible side effects of the medication I might take. I'm scared about how it will affect my relationship with my boyfriend.
Alex is so fantastic. He really didn't notice the weight gain. I know he still thinks I'm attractive. I know he's always going to be there for me.
I just wish I thought I was attractive. The other day I tried to wear a pair of jeans I hadn't worn in a month and they wouldn't even go above my hips. I'm so tired of hating how I look. I'm so tired of wearing sweatpants and tshirts because nothing else fits. I hate the fact that I've ballooned up and I want to cry every time I look in a mirror. I hate the fact that no matter what I eat I gain weight. I hate the fact that I went from a size 14 to a 20.
It's so embarrassing not being able to dress nicely because I can't find anything that fits. I hate wearing plus sized clothes.
But I look forward to getting better. I look forward to getting my weight down.
I'm ready for this.
Last edited by bridget0688; 11-03-2006 at 09:26 AM.
Welcome to SC! .....and Wow!
Your post made me sad and glad all at the same time!
Sad that you have had to go through all of this and glad that you figured out,with the help of your Doctor,what has been going on for you.
Sounds like you have a great boyfriend as well.
I remember having the same type of relationship with my boyfriend way back when all of this started for me as a 17 year old.
My boyfriend has now been my Husband for almost 18 1/2 years!
You have come to the right place to find info and support.....these ladies are wonderful!
I wish you all the best as you learn what all of this means and what will be best,as a treatment,for you.
{{{HUGS}}}
Welcome to soul cysters Bridget. I know that finding out you have PCOS is very confusing and frustrating. I just found out I had PCOS last month. Everyone is wonderful here and very supportive. If you ever need anything, there is always someone on the boards. I will pray for you and best of luck with your upcoming appt.
:hugs hun: I just hurt for you, the way you're feeling right now. I know it's so frustrating to see what PCOS can do to your body. But I know you're a beautiful cyster, all of my cysters are. We are always here for you, to just listen and support you if that's what you need.
What kind of treatment will you be doing for your PCOS?
Hang in there cyster, we're here to help!
Hugs
Jenny
__________________ Jenny(30) Josh (30) married 3/30/96
PCOS dx 1/03
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Reading your introduction brought tears to my eyes. I was just where you are, I know, and all the cysters know, exactly what your going through. On one hand you feel relieved to finally know what's wrong, yet on the other you want to scream at the top of your lungs to be normal. I know, I wanted to. I even had a break down, cried until I thought my eyes would burst, kept telling my DH that I wanted to be normal, but in the end, I realized that if I were, I couln't be a part of this wonderful community and would have never met my cysters, whom I all love so dearly.
There is a ton of things out there to help you with all of your syptoms. I am 270lbs, so I know how difficult it is to shop and to find things to wear, but you can wear jeans and you can look nice. I know how tough it is, but try to be happy with the beautiful woman you are, your bf is. He obviously loves you or else he wouldn't still be around. There are acne treatements out there that work. You will be ok, this just means taking better care of yourself and goodness know we can all stand to pamper ourselves!
As for pregnancy, there are a lot of women on here with PCOS who have been successful at having children. It can happen.
I hope things get better for you. Please keep us posted.
Again, thanks. I don't know how I'm going to be treated yet.
But I did have a little bit of a period. It was the first I had had since July. I only bled for a few hours, but still. It was exciting.
I feel more encouraged because of you guys. You're fantastic.
:Hugs sweetie:
I'm glad you got AF. Let us know what you find out or decide about treating your PCOS OK?
Just in case it's something you want to talk to your doc about: I was greatly helped by metformin. For me it regulated my cycles, helped me lose weight, and also helped me get pregnant. Just a thought hun!
Hang in there, I'm here anytime you need me.
Hugs
Jenny
__________________ Jenny(30) Josh (30) married 3/30/96
PCOS dx 1/03
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Yes, keep us posted on how you are doing. I'm glad that we could help in any way. Met has helped a lot of cysters, you may ask your doc about it, try it out. I really hope things get better for you soon!!
I'd just like to say welcome to S/C, and I applaud your positive attitude at the beggining of this thread!
When I was first diagnosed I didn't really pay attention to what was going on, I thought, ok, I have this, so what. I didn't become proactive until I found this site and decided to get informed. I ordered books off Amazon and read up on everything. I'm now fully informed, and when I speak to my Endo, I can understand what she's telling me. The only bugbear for me now is shifting this excess weight. I have a small problem with willpower and find it difficult to stay on a diet, I binge eat a lot.
I'm so lucky to have such a supportive partner too, and it's obvious your BF will support you on your journey.
If you have any questions or would just like to talk, PM me. Feel free.
Big hugs,
Dannie.
__________________ Danielle (28) DX: Hypothyroidism - May 05/ PCOS & IR Oct 05 Meds: 1x850mg Metformin + 1x75mg Levotiroxin + Diane 35
"If you can keep your head, when all about you are losing theirs, it's just possible you haven't grasped the situation"
Don't be nervous sweetie! (((big HUGS)))), This is the beginning, now you can arm yourself with knowledge. Plus you have your cysters here to help! Just remember to take deep breaths, you can do this!
bridget,
:Hugs: I'm so sorry that you're nervous hun. I know that feeling. If you want to talk anytime, I'm here for you. I have a good doc but have had doctor fears all my life, so I really do understand that nervous feeling. PM me or email me anytime cyster!
Hugs
Jenny
__________________ Jenny(30) Josh (30) married 3/30/96
PCOS dx 1/03
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I haven't officially been diagnosed yet but... 
.....and Wow!
We are always here for you, to just listen and support you if that's what you need.
Congrats!
