I have been really out of it,trying to find an antibiotic I can tolerate(im extremely chemically sensitive),and I still havent gotten my tooth under control.I have been down allot lately,and ive put on 3 more pounds...in two years ive put on 23 pounds!!!! Now I am heavier then I have been in my life,and eating less!!!! I am just so disgusted with myself,and the other day I cracked the center of my wicker sofa,and its because of
my weight,im just so ashamed and humiliated about it..I don't know what to do to get it under control,and right now im just focused on getting over an infection.I feel so jealous and sad when I see other women my age with there little slim,bodies and energy,when im just dragging myself....The other day I had to go to a doctors appoinment and my butt barely fit in the examination chair.....ITS AWFUL!!!!! If I get any bigger I am sure I wont be able to breathe,im so worried this weight is going to ruin my life! PEOPLE JUST JUDGE ME WITHOUT ANY THING,THINKING I JUST MUST BE A LAZY FATSO,WHO STUFFS HER FACE ALL DAY!!!! WELL I HAVE A DISEASE AND THAT ISNT MY FAULT!!! I used to be semi anorexic,and i screwed up my metabolism and digestive system with my crash dieting,on top of that I have PCOS and maybe a glad imbalance!!! I ASK THE LORD TO PLEASE PREVENT ME FROM GAINING EVEN ANOTHR OUNCE,AND HELPING ME LOOSE WHAT I NEED TO IN THE FUTURE....
((((hugs)))), Journey!
You sound so much like I did three years ago. I know how frustrating this can be.
I just want to encourage you and let you know that there is hope!
What made me start to lose some weight was forgetting about the food and diet part. That always made me too nervous and obsessive.
Instead I made it a top priority to move a little every weekday (I gave myself weekends off). In my case, it was walking. When I first started, I could hardly make it around the block. But, with perserverence and adding just a few more steps each day, I eventually walked 3.5 miles during my hour walks each weekday and lost 25 pounds over three years. Yes, that seems slow to some, but it was a miracle for me! The walks became an enjoyable part of my day, too.
If you are able to, I would encourage you to just start some simple exercise, like walking. Remember, every little effort to move counts toward making you feel better.
Kathryn
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Ia m on that road right now but I have fallen into depression and am suppose to start my Zoloft hopefully I will get some of this weight off another wards, give me some light at the end of the tunnel to get out more often and maybe, just maybe it will help with the weight issue, I can hope can't I?????
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Hi...sorry you are feeling so bad ((HUGS)) You need to remember Today and Everyday is a new day...Day 1
I have this hanging in my bathroom. You can't bite everything off at once you must eat a little at a time - I was getting very overwhelmed about my wieght and realized I needed to do lil changes to get big ones. I'm still working on it -I know how frustrating it is and I'm sorry your body is on a frenzie. Hope you get it worked out soon
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Hugs to you too!
I can totally relate- 2 years ago I gained 60 lbs in one year! And I was still going to the gym, watching what I ate. Like you said I feel like people are looking at me like I am some sort of lazy ass stuffing my face all day! That is very far from the truth! Unfortunately there is still a lot of descrimination out there. I had the ultimate of humilition a couple weeks ago when I rode a roller coaster I had to get out of the seat and wait for the next one as a couple of their seats were a little bigger so the bar could come down. Talk about humiliating- so I can totally relate. I then this week saw the pictures from the wedding that I was a bridesmaid is and really lost it then. I couldn;t believe how big I looked especially after I have been fighting so hard to lose weight!!
I have been on met and now Fortamet for about a year and it has not helped much. I just started the nutisystem plan and I am praying it helps some I can not contnue to be this big and feel like this. I am giving myself a year to really give 100% and if nothing works I will research the lap band surgery. I really don;t want to do something with risks like that but after years of failure it does seem like an option!
Hope you have a better day tomorrow!
I have a lot if supportive friends and husband so I did talk to them this week and now feel a little better! Also- what someone else suggested about tryng to increase exercise even if it doesn't help the weight loss will help your mood.
Take care!
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Thanks for the support guys,it really is so easy to come down hard on ourselves,especially in this image conscious society we live in with all the pressure to look good.And for a woman her entire self -esteem image is wrapped in her looks,unfair but true! I like the exercise suggestion I will try to start moving more no excuses not to!
Oh Journey, I can totally relate. I've been in the same boat. It's a vicicous cycle being depressed over your weight because it can cause more weight gain. Like it has already been mentioned, it is a one day at a time process to get healthy again. You have to find the right doctor for you, find a eating lifestyle and exercise program that you enjoy and can do for life. I went into a deep depression and wouldn't leave the house because of my weight, now I tell myself that I deserve to be happy no matter what anyone else thinks, that I deserve to live my life to the fullest-- and so do you.
I joined Weight Watchers and am doing the IR diet. I realized I was eating the wrong foods and not enough!!!! The mind boggles! lol I also exercise a minimun of five times a week, no excuses, and I have lost 23 pounds in ten weeks. It is baby steps each day.
I wish only the best for you hon. Best of luck to you.
{{{{HUGS}}}}
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I keep gaining weight :-( 
Kathryn
