Mia For 10 Yrs Due To Pcos-just Now Finding Myself
Hey ladies,
Just wondering if anyone feels that they lost many of their interests due to PCOS?
I just recently realized "I LOST ME" in the last 10 yrs, who i am who i was, who I wanted to be at this age I am now, things I so loved doing, places I wanted to go things I wanted to see. I truly never thought I would be this UNHAPPY! I have the BESTEST Hubby ever, greatest family and friends but yes what about me, Who am I?
I was Acctually watching lifetime last night and enjoyed the show with Carson i think it was How to look good naked? It was awesome and even though im bigger then that girl but have the same shape i still sympathized with her so much and with everything Carson said it set a light bulb off in my head!
Anyone catch the show?
So in realizing all this I have decided once and for all, NO MORE Excuses its time to think of ME!!! Its my time to shine!!All over again!
So the things I will not do any longer:
1-No more being lazy
2-NO more EXCUSES
3-No More over eating
4-no more being frumpy
5-no more Everyone else and screw chrissy!
6-No more letting all my ailments get me down and make me house bound!
7-NO smoking!(it will take time but I will accomplish it)
8-No more avoiding friends and family
THERES MORE But I will add later!
Things I will do:
1-I WILL fix myself up everyday-no matter how yucky i feel
2-I will be active even if its 20 min i wil lbe!
3-I will smile all the time no matter how i feel!
4-I will plan lil vacations/getaways for me and hubby
5-I will go to stores and browse even if I dont have $ to shop
6-I will start seeing all the things I wanted to see in the world
7-I will be as positive as can be
8-I will go and do fun things with hubby and not worry about my weight and other pcos symptoms that show on the outside
9-I WILL FOLLOW THROUGH
10-I WILL FIND MYSELF'
11-I WILL DO ATLEASt 2 things that interest mE WEEKLY
12-I WILL JUST OVERALL HAVE A MAJOR LIFESTYLE CHANGE
Any of you ladies have anything to add?
THANKS FOR READING!
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Last edited by Chrissybabe1996; 01-18-2008 at 12:48 AM.
Chrissy...
your post hit home for me. I never realized it before but I too have lost myself and have used PCOS as an excuse for things as well.
I have just started thinking about this last week- so I started Jenny Craig and going to lose weight, exercise, and take time to actually pamper myself and not be so hard on myself and think so negative!
I love you game plan and I hope to do the same!
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Im glad u realized it as well! I find it so sad that the type of person I was let something like PCOS change and effect the last 10 yrs of my life! WE WILL FIND OURSELVES ALL WE HAVE TO DOIS START ON THE TRACK WE WANT AND FOLLOW OUR LIST AND CHECK THINGS OFF AS WE GO AND DONT GIVE UP AND LEARN SELF DISAPLINE! BEING WHO WE ARE IS WHAT MAKES US OUR HAPPIEST NOT THE PERSON WHO WE HAVE BECOME DUE TO THIS YUCKY ANNOYING SYNDROME!WE JUST NEED TO KEEP THAT IN OUR HEADS, DO WE LIKE BEING THIS WAY OR DO WE LIKE BEING HAPPY LIKE WE USE TO, AND THAT WILL KICK OUR BUTSS IN GEAR AND KEEP US ON TRACK! IM SO SURPRISED IT TOOK ME THIS LONG TO REALIZE ALL OF THIS! GOOD LUCK TO U HUN!KEEP ME POSTED ON YOUR PROGRESS?
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Excellent post, Chrissy! I am sure many women can relate to how you have felt over the past 10 years due to PCOS and relate to how you want to improve your life.
I will cheer you all on. I think it's wonderful you have decided to take all of this on. After-all, it is YOUR life - make the most of it, be happy, and accept yourself as a beautiful human being! You go girl. I commend your efforts and wish you sooooo much luck as you deserve to be happy!
I have only had to deal with PCOS & all of the crap that comes with it for nearly 2 years (almost!) so I haven't lost a huge deal of who I am. I mean, I sometimes make excuses or figure that I just don't have the time to concentrate on me but I snap out of it. In the back of my mind, I am ALWAYS okay with not being pregnant. I don't know if it's because of ALL the disappointments but I take care of ME first. But, there are times I get depressed & exclude myself from gatherings with friends/family, or I will lock myself in our house for an entire weekend. I think that is acceptable until it becomes an everyday problem. I hope to never get to that point, though! Either way, I haven't lost who I am but I have lost out on many beautiful days and times I could have had thanks to PCOS.
I take a stand, too. I will NO longer allow PCOS to bring me down or run my life. I take control!!
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We Are On A TTC Break For At Least 6 Months!
(starting March, 2008)
I don't feel like I've "lost" me, but for too long I let my pcos define me. I used it as an excuse.
Now, I'm learning how to ride horses (well, learning how to fall off of them) and I'm active during the day. I'm eating better--the cowboy and I are actually going to start keeping food and exercise journals together.
I feel like I've finally gotten a handle on this thing and I'm not going to give into it anymore.
Thanx Kris u r awesome and good luck to u hun u know im always here for u!
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Thas great JessNicole!I cant wait to start learnign/experiencing new fun things! Keep me posted on how well u do! I know u will do great! Journals are a perfect idea me and dh just discussed that last night while wathcin the show!
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Hi Chrissy
I saw that episode too, wasn't it great? I don't think I've lost sight of "Me" because of PCOS, but I do tend to make excuses and I'm terribly lazy. I'm hoping to get back on track this year. Good luck with everything!
It's funny in a way that this post is here today I guess you could say it was meant to be because yet again I needed to see that willpower and drive conquer things and not giving up and hiding. So first of Thank You Chrissy for writing it. I haven't gotten to see the show yet but I love Carson and I'm sure they will repeat it so it is definitely something I want to catch if I get the chance.
A couple of weeks ago I got really unhappy with something that had happened when DH and I had gone out. I had a meltdown, literally and during the meltdown I spurted out that I'm just not me anymore. I used to be a super active, fun loving person. I used to love to camp, hike, dress nice I was never caught with out my hair done and at least some lipstick on (my grandmother taught me that trick as long as you brushed your hair and put on something on your lips you looked like you spent hours getting ready.. funny thing was it always worked.) I wrote all the time and I was good at it, I even had people encouraging me to write children's books. There was just so much difference back then to the person I've become... and honestly I really don't like her.
I'd rather hide now, and activity? *snorts* most of the time I think if I move at all it's going to kill me. Things I like? Things I want to do? Those are gone with the years.. and writing? Half the time I can't even write three words strung together anymore let alone a paragraph. I don't even try to look nice anymore I'm a big plump girl now (another change from 10 years ago) I wear these baggy clothes that don't even really fit me right and have no shape.. I don't try to change that either I just go right on wearing them.. I won't spend the money for new clothes because I'm terrified of shopping.. I cut my hair off a couple of months ago (super super super short) which made me look like a boy even though DH as sweet as he is says I didnt it's just growing back in now and ick it's impossible.. and as for makeup? ha!
So I guess I have things to change right along with you.. so here's my contributions to the list.
- I will buy some new clothes even if it is only a few pieces can't try to become a new me in the same old frump.
- I will stop being so darned negative about myself and tell myself that I am beautiful at least once a day.
- I will reexamine the doing of hair and the applying of makeup especially when going to work.
- I will stop making myself so unapproachable by smiling and saying hello to people. I will start accepting invitations to dinner and to go out occasionally.
- I WILL start working out again I was feeling wonderful when I did and I could feel differences even if I couldn't see them. Even if I don't loose all the weight I've gained I will get in better shape.
- I WILL STOP FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF *This is my big one. I was once a very spiritual woman from a very spiritual family and I grew up learning years and years of traditions and family beliefs. Since all this started I have felt as if it was some kind of punishment, some lesson I had to learn.. I wasn't a very nice person when I was still thing, I did make fun of people like me and the rest of us.. of course I was a teenager at the time but it was no excuse so I felt like my behavior brought me to this path "you reap what you sow" The thing is I know the lesson that I need to learn that I'm still human, that I'm still ME and that I still feel all ranges of feelings being in this body compared to my old one.
- In regards to the above I will find and use the spirituality I once had again, to support and help myself grow.
- Binge Eating/ Using food to feel better had GOT to stop all I am doing with the run to Taco Bell or Dairy Queen when I feel down is contributing to my negative self image. This WILL be the Hardest part for me my grandmother and mother were both emotional eaters as well.. I know what foods I should be eating I have a house full of it! but still in the moment that I feel pessimistic right off to fast food do I run. (This is worse for me than quitting smoking which I was able to do successfully after 15 years last year)
I think this will be all for now it's a pretty big list already... oh! and I will try to set aside sometime to write as well even if it's only once a week. I'm sure I'll have more as time goes on.. but this feels like a good place to start.
Trinity~ i feel u in so many ways! Im glad that you realized it b4 it took more of "You" away! Im also glad I realzied it to because it really is damaging in so many ways toward me.
I love your goals its a great start! Dont give up u will find u again! U will be happy! I keep telling myself that! I acctually did my 20 min of activity today, took my fur baby to the park and walked all over it was more then 20 min so im happy I exceedds it it was like an hr of activity or more. cant wait to find who I am!! I know seeing me write that looks crazy but its true I dont know really who I am just a lil bit about me, know my wants, needs desires interests but I seemed to forget! Ok enough blabber from me now hope all of u r doing well! n
((((((((((Hugs )))))))))))))))))to u trinity![/i]
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God bless you, Chrissy. You deserve all of those good things in your life and I am so happy to hear that you are going to take yourself back from PCOS!
I have a lot of the same goals. It's so important that we don't let this damn diagnosis take over our lives. We deserve happiness and to feel great. Good luck to you!
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Hi Chrissy
Sorry I have been MIA
So I peeked at the scale today and I am down 6lbs... I was so shocked 6lbs in 5 days.
I am trying to take active steps to take back my life from PCOS. Getting up everyday and getting ready for the day. (not like I have any place to go I am a stay at home wife) and trying to give myself more respect that I deserve.
How is your progress going? how are you feeling?
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Trinity I also feel you in so many ways.... I realized I had a problem when I would rather stay home than go out with friends, I didn't want to see anyone. In a way I was embarrassed of what I have "become"
Your game plan also sounds great!
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I didn't see the show but I find that I expend all my energy at work. When I get home I just want to mope and feel sorry for myself!
My goal will be to stay motivated!
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Mia For 10 Yrs Due To Pcos-just Now Finding Myself 
