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10-27-2005, 08:28 PM
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Join Date: May 2004 Location: WI
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Points: 746.00 Bank: 0.00 Total Points: 746.00 |  I lost my baby 1 week ago...
and I am still sad, mad, empty. I just want my baby back. We were so excited that everything worked out for us and then we lost him. DH and I discussed how this time I would go to the OB visits alone during the day so that we were not there forever and my first one turned out devistating. After my OB visit I went acroos the waiting room and stood in line for blood work and that is where our nightmare began. I went to the bathroom and saw the blood. I tried to pull myself together and went to the reception desk and told them I needed to see the nurse. The women told me to go in and I told the lady cleaning the room I was in that I needed the nurse and then I turned to see the Dr there and told him I was bleeding. He told me to not worry that it was from the exam and I said no it's alot. So the nurse helps me undress for another exam and the blood is just running down my legs and onto the floor. She offered to call my DH and thankfully he was working in town. So he got there in no time and the Dr did an ultrasound and the baby still had a heart beat and the placenta was on my cervix and that's why I was bleeding. Now I am beginning to cramp and he sends us home with everything may turn out to be ok, women have stopped bleeding. So now my hopes are up and we drive 30 mins. home. I finally can't take the pain anymore and call the Dr he says there is nothing he can do but I could go to the ER to get checked out. I decided to do that because I feel like I am dialating. On our way I feel a huge pop inside of me that makes me jump and then all the contractions stop. We get to the ER and as we are walking in I am just bleeding everywhere. I was of course embarrassed since the blood was obvious and I told my husband to go get the nurse in the room where she is. She leads us back to the romm as I am crying the whole time. She tells me to go undress and I sat on the toilet and I knew the baby came out. We looked in there and there he was. I told the nurse as best as I could that I thought my baby was in the toilet. When the ER Dr came in to confirm it was the hardest thing. My poor Dh was just so upset. I had to comfort him more than I needed. We found out that he was the very little boy that we were hoping for, that was hard too. I got to see him and get pictures with him. He is being cremated and I miss him so much. We will be trying again in Jan. I hope we don't have to go thru this again. Our family and friends have been great. My husband is the best and I thank God for my son. He is the only reason I even get out of bed. Thanks for reading.
In memory of Thomas Christopher October 20, 2005
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3-Failed Clomid
1-Failed IUI
1st IVF -Failed
2nd IVF July 2003-Finally
DS born March 12, 2004 (35w2d)
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10-27-2005, 09:05 PM
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| | Missing Gabriel & David
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Brenna, I am so so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you....
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Gabriel born 19w5d 11/15/04 due to IC.
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10-27-2005, 09:16 PM
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| | Maybe Tomorrow
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I'm so sorry you lost your precious baby boy. My thoughts and prayers will be with you. | |
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10-27-2005, 09:31 PM
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| | Loving being a mommy!
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I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Sending lots of (((HUGS))) and prayers to you. | |
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10-27-2005, 09:34 PM
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| | Choosing2Lose Cyster
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I'm sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine how terrifying and heartbreaking it must have been for you. I pray for nothing but good things for you when you try again.
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10-27-2005, 10:06 PM
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Brenna...i'm so sorry, bless your sweet little angel baby...
take care
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10-27-2005, 11:28 PM
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| | My two yr old IS my boss
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I am so sorry for your loss. | |
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10-27-2005, 11:59 PM
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I am very sad for you. Know that your tears are shared and that we are here anytime you need to talk. These little ones are so precious... it just breaks my heart that your dream was coming true and then ended way too soon.
Hugs,
Sheri
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Metformin 1500mg since 10/02, Yasmin since 4/06, managing IR/pcos with lower carbs
First pregnancy ended at 23 weeks due to incompetent cervix.
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Mary Catherine will be in our hearts forever, November 28, 2003.
Second loss March 9, 2004 at five weeks
Third pregnancy, Cerclage 8/13-1/19
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10-28-2005, 12:10 AM
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I am so sorry for your loss. It is upsetting to me that one more person, family, baby has to go through this. You are not alone in your pain and sorrow.
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10-28-2005, 12:13 AM
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I am so sorry for your loss, feel free to let all your feelings go here . We're all hear for you .
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10-28-2005, 12:34 AM
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I am so sorry for your loss, I am crying just reading this....my heart goes out to you and your DH and family.....god bless, Hugs
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It's a BOY!!!!! (CONNOR JAMES)
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10-28-2005, 01:15 AM
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It breaks my heart to read your post. I am so sorry about your loss. ((hugs))
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Noelle - my little baby, was only with us for 17 weeks and 5 days, February 7, 2005
2nd loss - my little angel, could only stay with us for a little while, 8 weeks, August 3, 2005
Hoping to remain positive, always...
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10-28-2005, 07:53 AM
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I am so sorry for your tragic loss. My thoughts are with you and your dh at this tragic time. | |
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10-28-2005, 11:05 AM
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I'm so very sorry for you loss. Know that your feelings of hurt, saddness and anger are understood. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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dh - 27 May 22, 2004 dx 5/5/05 BFP (clomid 50mg) on 7/19/05! EDD 3/24/06 ...missed m/c 9/05 BFP (clomid 50mg + trigger + IUI) - 4/30/06 Twin boys born 11/20/06 (33wks)... 29 days in the NICU
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10-28-2005, 03:14 PM
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| | Let's Go Red Wings!
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I'm so sorry.
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Sparky, our emergent cerclage baby, born at 23w1d on 3/4/07 through his cerclage. Died from NEC on 3/12/07.
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