I lost my baby last night

STINA · 04-13-2003, 09:09 PM

Its so hard to type this right now.
Last night I miscarried my baby that I only found out last week I was expecting, just as I was getting used to the idea. I'm totally dumbfounded at the moment. Although I know I will keep trying for the precious baby I so long to hold in my arms its so hard to think about and I honestly dont know if I could ever go through all this pain and sorrow again. This will be my 3rd m/c and tomorrow morning I've to go back to the hospital for a D&C. I feel worse this time than I did before but deep down inside I knew something wasn't quite right as I was suffering really bad cramps for the past few days prior to last night. I just feel like going outside and screaming at the top of my lungs but I think if I did that I would be locked up in the mental ward. I'm absolutely dreading going back to the hospital tomorrow.

JaneR · 04-13-2003, 09:18 PM

Oh Stina - I'm so sorry for your loss honey. I really thought when you posted last week that this would be your time. My heart goes out to you.

I'm glad you will keep trying - I am sure that someone as beautiful as you was meant to have and hold a baby of their own.

Take care and may your God go with you.

Sapphire Spirit · 04-13-2003, 09:19 PM

STINA
I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your precious little one. The feeling of loss in those first few days is overwhelming and for me it was as if I was numb. I just want to say that we are hear for you. If you want to scream, cry and breakdown.......you go right ahead and do it. I don't think anyone would lock you away.....you are grieving your dear little baby.
I pray that you will find the strength and courage to get through this (and I know that you will) and that you feel the love and comfort of others at this devastating time.
Thinking of you and sending you [[[[[[HUGS]]]]]]]]].

Amy

helenquinn · 04-13-2003, 09:27 PM

Oh Stina,

I am sooo sorry to hear your news.

I will think of you in my prayers.

Helen

*DannysMom* · 04-13-2003, 09:54 PM

I am sorry that you are going through this again...

Please know that I am praying for you.
Karen

shenacat · 04-13-2003, 09:55 PM

I am so sorry for your loss. I will send all the good thoughts your way that I can spare.

It is common here in the US to do extensive testing after the 3rd m/c to see why they are occurring. I know that with my miscarriage the worst part was not knowing why it happened. I know you dread going back to the doctors but maybe this time they will work hard for you to find out what is going on, maybe this time you will be able to get some answers.

I certainly hope that you *never* have to have this heartache again.

cystermoon · 04-13-2003, 10:49 PM

(((HUGS))) I am so sorry to hear of your loss and I want you to know that you can pm any time if you need to talk about it. I lost my third in Oct so I know all about multiple losses. Take care of yourself.

Nikkit2 · 04-13-2003, 11:03 PM

Oh Stina I am so sorry. my prayers are with you. i've gone through it and I know the pain. Take your time and grieve. Lots of love to you

TracyW2 · 04-13-2003, 11:18 PM

{{HUGS}}

I am so sorry for your loss.

~Tracy

Neroli · 04-13-2003, 11:34 PM

Stina - I'm so sorry to hear your news. I know just how devastating is can be and how numb you feel !!!

My thoughts are with you.

Neroli
xxxx

Louie · 04-14-2003, 12:14 PM

((((stina)))) I'm so sorry. I totally understand that feeling of wanting to scream. Try to let it out as best you can and know that we are all here for you and thinking of you. After m/c #2, I am now planning to see a specialist in recurrent m/c. I don't know if it will make a difference, but it gives me some feeling of peace of mind. If you haven't already, it might be good for you to go to an expert in that area to investigate what might be causing these losses. I pray that you will be able to make it through this with help from friends and family and that your little ones are at peace.