I'm losing control

Countrygirl81 · 10-11-2005, 02:02 PM

this is gonna sound really weird coming from a fat pig like me but i honestly think im beginning to lose control and i dont know what to do..
about 3 weeks ago i had a lot of time after my surgery and my husband was at work and i watched a movie on lifetime bout eating disorders .. then afterwards I thought how great it would be if i could just lose a few lbs a week and eventually get to my goal.. the problem now is I've been going to pro ana and mia websites and its making sense to me ... ive been very tempted try the diets and a few days ive done so and on more than one occasion i had eaten less than 200 calories a day.. the bad thing is now when i start eating "normal" i feel soo sick to my stomach and wanna vomit (i have once )..

I've lost 9 lbs in the past week and a half and im scared im taking it tooo far already.. my husband is getting suspicious that im doing something im not sposed to (maybe cheating or something because im sure the last thing on his mind is an eating disorder) because im clearing the history after going to these websites but i go to them as much as i go to this one.. I dont know what to do now.. maybe try an work my way back up to normal foods or have I gone tooo far??

*tinks* · 10-11-2005, 02:29 PM

Please go to your doctor or see a nurse at your local doctors surgery/health centre - they'll be able to give u the best advice. could u see a nutritionist to help u sort ur diet ? but i'd say try eating unprocessed food - lots of veg - maybe have some soup with wholemeal bread, and build up again slowly, eat little and often. its not too late.
ive tried every diet going and they are not good for u - u may lose weight but it'll go back on - i found a balanced diet with lots of fish, chicken, wholegrains, vegetables, some fruit, herbal teas and nuts and seeds is the best way to go - just watch how many carbs u eat but do not cut them out - have a little carbohydrate at each meal, and try not to worry - do LOTS of exercise and dont beat urself up if u've had a bad day forget it and move on. could u see a counsellor? it'll help u organise ur thoughts - ive just started seing one and wish i had gone sooner.
good luck hun xxxx

nicole47 · 10-11-2005, 02:33 PM

Hi Misty,

Get professional help as soon as possible. Eating disorders are dangerous and it is important that you see someone, either a GP or a therapist, about it.

There's a way you can block yourself from viewing those websites on your computer:
Go to C:\WINDOWS\SYSTEM32\DRIVERS\ETC
choose the hosts file (open in word or wordpad or notepad)
then put this in below the localhost line
127.0.0.1 site_to_block
e.g.,
127.0.0.1 localhost
127.0.0.1 phpadsnew.abac.com

Remember that eating healthily and getting enough nutrients and calories through the day is important for your health and good luck getting through this! 9 lb in one week is not healthy. But it is never too late to work your way back up to normal healthy eating, especially if you get professional help to do so. I completely recovered after 3 days of food poisoning earlier this year (though I spent some of that time on an IV and drank a LOT of ginger ale). After a few months I even got over my aversion to hamburgers (which is what gave me the problem).

daughty · 10-11-2005, 05:17 PM

I agree, please go and see a doctor. And please don't refer to yourself as a "fat pig" *hugs*

All the best!

choirmissy · 10-11-2005, 09:21 PM

You need to see a doctor who can help you come up with a good plan. In the long run, you are doing your body far more bad than good. You need to stop the triggers now and find a healthy way to get things under control. You can do it!

Penelope Pitstop · 10-12-2005, 07:13 PM

Yes I agree go to doctors short term it might seem great as your losing weight but bulimia damages your body so much one of my best friends damaged her kidneys after doing this for a number of years she is now awaiting kidney transplant for both.. I'mnot trying to scare you but this might be a reality check

Take care