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nyk22dp · 06-16-2003, 07:10 PM

i'm new to the site but i really need some support. For the past four years i've suffered from weight gain, heavy painful periods, anxiety attacks and much more. I was diagnosed with pcos in Jan and have since started birth control and last month started spironolactone. Right now im feeling as if i want to run away from everything- im supposed to start a summer college course to jump start nursing school and im too afraid about leaving high school. I really need some advice about how to calm myself down- i've already driven myself crazy for a class that starts next week! this site is wonderful!

TracyW2 · 06-16-2003, 07:15 PM

WELCOME TO SOUL CYSTERS!!!

Try to relax. Do something you enjoy. Have a night out with friends or go pamper yourself. Do things that would take your mind off of everything. Maybe get away for a weekend go some where and do some shopping.

Best of luck with nursing school and hope to see you around the boards.

~tracy

Lendi · 06-16-2003, 08:57 PM

Take a few very deep breaths. Tell yourself that you are on the road to better health. Tell yourself that you are starting a brand new adventure and that you can do it. And, you can. It's a hard thing to start something new and different, but you've conquered a much harder battle by dealing with PCOS. Congratualations! I'm sure you will make a wonderful nurse. You've been through tests, and pain and the unknown. Wish my DD had someone like you who knew what was going on. You will do great. Just take it one day at a time. Good luck, and again many congrats for a job well done. Hugs, Lendi

nyk22dp · 06-25-2003, 02:52 PM

Thanks for all the advice girls but i'm just feeling really off right now. I understand that my hormones are out of whack, but I don't feel like myself, i'm bummed out or something. I feel like I dont want to anything that i used to. please let me know if anyone else has felt this way and how I can get myself out of this slump- with or without meds. thank you and again- this message board and chatroom has been so helpful to me during this hard time in my life.

frenchiebull · 06-25-2003, 05:11 PM

I understand where you are coming from with the anxiety.I'm 30 i've suffered with it for my whole life.When i was 27 i had a very stressful situation happen and i could not deal with it so i ended up having some type of nervous breakdown that ended up with me having a mild stroke.I have been on xanax ever since.My problem now is that im realizing that the xanax is wonderful for controlling a panic attack but not constant anxiety.And your feeling of not wanting to do stuff sounds alot like anxiety from the unknown.Am i right?Your going to be going to school for something you really want and your excited but scared too.If you have been like this for 4 years and your not getting better soon i would see your doctor to rule out all medical situations(like thyroid problems)and maybe try somthing that your doctor can prescribe you.Im gonna try something because i dont want to suffer anymore.Take it from me you dont want to spend most of your life a nervous wreck.It hurts you and those around you that care about you!Good luck in what you decide.Remember your not alone!

jenlove · 06-28-2003, 08:55 PM

I hear what you are saying(nyk22dp) about freaking out and wanting to run away. I have had pcos since I was 18, but just been officially diagnosed three weeksago.....up until this point I have literally been running away from everthing, not knowing why. I moved from state to state, went from school to school, and from job to job. After running wild for so long here I am now with the realization that I can't run away from myself. I need to stay put. Try and be focused and live in this one moment only. It has really helped me to have a journal, I can carry out my biggest fears, greatest worries, and deepest hurts, I can hate myself and love myself and then, i can close my journal, do something positive, go to sleep and start all over again the next day.....I know that taking long walks really helps me when I am feeling overwhelmed by lifes conditions....maybe it would help you too....take care and don't worry about tomarrow, just find a way to be happy right now.....I have to remind myself the same thing over and over agian, or I am likely to pack my bags and run off in the night to only God knows where......

PS-Don't be afraid to leave highschool the world is full of wonderful surprises......and if you are worried about being a nurse, than maybe it's not for you. Start out taking general education classes and explore what makes you happy.

CathyWood · 06-28-2003, 09:40 PM

Hello-Just wanted to say welcome to SC. I was dx a year ago and I was going through a lot of emotions. I know what it is like to just run away from everything. I got some good meds and it has helped me out. Hope you get some that help too.

Feel free to IM me...I am leecath4 with aol. I put you on my buddy list so just wanted you to know. Talk to you soon.

curlygrrl · 07-03-2003, 06:26 PM

Hi and welcome!

I am 29 now and probably had PCOS since puberty. I totally identify with the wanting to run away thing. I don't know if it's pcos, depression, or some kind of personality thing. Maybe it's an inability to cope, I don't know.

I quit college after 2 years and wish I hadn't. Finally last year I completed a Business Degree and a few months later realized I didn't want to do that at all!! I feel like I've wasted half my life already.

I say change your mind about what you want to do, but perservere. You don't have to be sure but it helps to get some schooling under your belt now.

((hugs))
Tamara