I'm new to this forum

happycapri · 10-28-2003, 11:52 PM

Hi ladies:

I haven't posted over here before, but I should. Long story short, my diagnosis of PCOS is tentative since I have a prexisting condition waiting period and can't do the official thing til spring.

I got my DX in January, but I was already pretty sure it fit me--
I'm an apple, have always had irregular/absent cycles, always been heavy, have some excess hair issues. I also have struggled with depression and anxiety since my teen years, and I have skin tags. I also joined WW in January and have lost about 26 pounds, but none in the last several months.

I have been on BCPs since January-- started out on Ortho-Tricyclen and was switched off in June because my depression suddenly kicked into desperate gear. I knew it was medical because my life in general wasn't too bad, but I was getting really scared about how bad I felt. As soon as I stopped those pills, I started to feel normal. It was like a switch flipped.

I am now on Alesse, and doing ok, but I am recently getting moodier again. This time, there are some real-life factors, but I want to keep an eye on it. I am also not losing any more weight, and have lost my motivation since it stopped. This was after the pill switch, so I don't know if that is related or not.

My depression/anxiety was diagnosed about 3 years ago, and improved a lot with therapy. I stopped after about 1 year. I was never treated with meds since much of that episode was situational (a break-up of a ten year relationship).

My current sweetie also has depression, and has been in therapy for many years, sometimes with meds. He is fairly supportive, but I know when I have meltdowns like I did on Sunday, it ain't easy.

We have a dawn simulator which makes mornings easier, but I am always looking for other ways to take care of myself. Exercise sometimes helps. Any other good tips?

Thanks for reading all that!

Terri · 10-29-2003, 02:00 PM

I have been out of sorts for the last couple of weeks.
I have suffered from depression/panic disorder for the last ten years and was doing ok with the help of meds and just being stubborn and going on I guess.
About two weeks ago or so I have a miscarriage and now I am unbelievably depressed. My panic attacks have worsened and are more frequent and my meds are not working and I am just so fed up of feeling this way and I am still sad over the miscarriage, well I am just not myself. Some times I even think of getting some sleeping pills and taking the whole friggin' bottle and sleeping for awile.
I am sorry if I sould hostile really I am. My DR. just keeps giving me drugs and minimizes my feelings. I requested several times to see a therapist/sink anything I need to talk, I have baggage but NO he says what happened to me in the past does not matter what I do now is what counts. I mean hey, if I am asking for the referral why the hell can't I get it. OH well.
Sorry please I am just ranting....I guess I should go to the rant room. But, I do understand you melt downs. I am not sure if I can say anything to make it better but I just wanted to let you know I understand.

happycapri · 10-29-2003, 09:40 PM

I think being able to talk about these feelings in a safe environment is really helpful. I'm sorry about your loss, and I can't believe your doctor wants you to deny your feelings! That just doesn't make sense-- you lost your baby and you aren't supposed to grieve?!? I don't know much about the Canadian health care system-- do you have to have a referral to see a therapist? What other options do you have? Because we both know that your pain isn't going to go away without help and you deserve to get it.