I'm Pregnant...& this should be the happiest time of my life..

Mschin · 01-28-2005, 03:47 PM

But it seems like the worse!
First off my BF broke up with me when I was 6mnths pregnant and left me so depressed after years of trying to have a child together.
Then he started showing me mix signals ...having me think that he still loves me and that maybe thing will work out .....but today I come to find out that the only person he has ever loved is his first childs mother. He said this in a private convo he thought he was having with someone else. He also said that he feels like he's in his bad karma right now (to me that means he's talking about me and his unborn child).
He also told this person ..." you know when someone loves u but you dont love them back?" I assume he's talking about me AGAIN!
WOW...this pregnancy has been so hard! I litterally cry almost every night!
I really think I'm going crazy and am so scared of post-partum depression after my son is born!

CathyWood · 01-28-2005, 07:35 PM

I am sorry you are going throught this. ITS a hard time right now. Contact me if you wish.

TickledPink · 01-28-2005, 07:38 PM

I am so sorry! You sound so sad!

Can you talk to your doc about your depression and your fears a PPD??

best of luck!

kwannabee · 01-30-2005, 08:57 PM

Hey...look out a big hug is coming your way...and you sure deserve it!

First of all...those pregnancy hormones are a real kicker...add all the other stuff youre dealing with no wonder youre depressed!!

As for his 'bad karma'

in my opinion thats man speak for 'afraid of the responsability and too immature to admit it'...

you are strong and you can get through this cuz you have a baby who needs you...so hold your head high and focus on that little bundle...and the rest will fall into place. And if it doesnt talk to your doctor because maybe s/he can help...but you need your friends around you now...so dont waste another tear on someone who is making his own choices and doesnt deserve you or that miracle baby in his life anyway...at least not til he screws his head on strait...bad karma...give me a break!! Grow up daddy...

ahem...sorry...i guess i'm dealing with a few hormones of my own :o

Mschin · 02-03-2005, 02:35 PM

Thanks Ladies...I really appreciate it!

Its funny....b/c everytime something happens between us and I finally decide to do things on my own ....he all of a sudden shows the most interest in me.
He has been calling me like crazy saying that he wants to do the right thing for our son and for us to move in together and try to work things out.
I've heard this before and frankly ...I'm tired of being dissappointed and stressed out where he's concerned!

He doesnt realize but he's making me a stronger person. I've been through so much with this pregnancy and with him, that I know if it boils down to me doing it on my own...I will and know I can!

QueenK · 02-04-2005, 01:36 AM

Girl all you need is your baby!! He will come around and figure out what he lost... Just keep healthy with that baby.. And smile!!

Gods with you....