At 15w1d I miscarried my third pregnancy. After feeling pressure and cramping and bleeding since Monday... what I soon figured out was contractions turned into a gush of amnionic fluid last night at 11:30pm... I ran to the bathroom and the baby had just fallen outside of me... dh and I did what we could to get me and the baby in the car and get to Labor and Delivery as soon as we could. I was examined- the baby removed- and the placenta would not expell. They then allowed us to hold our baby--- and when the placenta would not come out- found me bleeding very intensely. They took me for an emergency D&C... recovery took a long time... but dh and I left the hospital by 4am. I am in total shock--- and i have such a heavy heart. This was supposed to be "the one" for us... I just don't understand why this keeps happening to us. It is not fair. I am sorry if I shared too much information- but all of you have been there for me time and time again... and I needed to let you all know what happened .
Thanks for caring.
Karen
Karen {{{{HUGS}}}} I am so sorry for your & DH's loss.
Traci
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Karen, I am so sorry. You have been through so very much and deserve peace and joy in life... you deserved this baby and it makes me feel angry and so sad to see you suffer like this again. These things make absolutely NO sense. How can good people just keep getting such a bad deal over and over? It truly is not fair. I've had my own dose of this unfairness and feel skeptical and burnt out most of the time. If I were to get pr again, I feel I would just be waitng for a seemingly inevidable loss. It's hard to get past the heartache of losing our babies. But somehow, hope usually comes alive again and there is always a chance that good things really will happen someday. I can feel what pain you must be in right now and just want you to know that I care and wish I could make it better... wish we could turn back time and fix it all. Going forward, if you decide to keep ttc (which I hope you will if that is right for you), I hope you will find some answers to why this is happening and some possible preventative treatment if such a thing exists. I'm so sorry from the bottom of my heart. I am praying for healing and for a healthy baby for you and your DH oneday. ((hugs))
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Karen-
I am so sorry. Your story broke my heart. Have you had the "repetitive loss" workup? I feel stupid asking, but there may be very specific reasons why this is happening to you. And there are treatments aimed at prevention of these losses. The good news (if you can see it that way) is that conceiving is NOT the issue for you. Now that that's settled, if you choose, tackle the other avenue. Are you from the NYC area? I have some names if it turns out to be something immunologic.
((((HUGS)))))
Rollyn
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dx 1995 ttc since 1/02
7/02 Clomid 50mg with IUI-ectopic w/ L tube removal
10/02-12/02 Clomid w/IUI-1 chem PG
on GlucXR since 2/03 (1500mg)
7/30/03-chem PG
Clomid 50 mg days 3-7 next cycle
8/20/03-IUI after HCG
9/2/03 +HPT; 13dpiui HCG 172, P4>40 15dpiui HCG 427, P4 59.8
Jillian Hope was born on 5/15/04
8 lbs. 1 oz., 20 inches
PG again! (completely naturally-on NO meds!)
+HPT 11/24/05 beta 489 16dpo/1437 18dpo
EDD 8/7/06
Thank you everyone for your kind words and prayers. So many of you have been with us since the beginning... I know your words are heartfelt and that I can always find friends here that i can rely on in my darkest hours. Dh and I spent the day together... in a state of shock mostly. If there is anything I do know- it's that i have the greatest friend in my dh... and we'll get through this too.
Again, thanks for all the posts ... it really helps to work through all this sadness.
Karen
I am so sorry for your loss. I know when I lost my son that there wasnt really anything that anyone could say to me. So all I will say is I am deeply sorry you both and please never give up.
Good-Luck and my prayers are with you.
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Karen, I'm so very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine your pain right now, but please know that I'll be thinking of you and praying for you and your DH. Let your deep love for each other carry you thru this terrible loss.
Brenda
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Finally pregnant after 7 IVF's!
Beta #1, 14dpo, 199..!!! Beta #2, 16dpo 405!!
TWINS!!!!
Rescue Cerclage placed at 16 weeks
Remy & Sydney are HOME!!! 11-19-05 @34w5d
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(((Karen)))) I am sitting here with tears in my eyes trying to find some words to comfort you... but I know all too well that there are no words right now that will help heal your broken heart... time and love and patience will eventually lead to healing. Just take things one day at a time and hold tight to your dh.... Just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and will keep you and your dh in my prayers.
Janie
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Laparoscopy 03/11/03; found multiple fibroids and endometriosis
3 rounds of Gonal-F injections with IUI's -- all a BUST!!
Myomectomy on July 8, 2003 to remove fibroids.
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((((Huge Hugs to you and DH)))) I am sorry you are going though this. I don't know what to say other than we all we be here if you need to rant away.
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Karen:
I am so sorry for all of your losses. No one should have to go through one loss, let alone, multiple losses. Please take the time to grieve and cry for your little one. Also, it may help to go talk to a grief counselor. I lost my twin daughters at 21 weeks about 4 months ago. My husband and I saw a grief counselor for a few months and it really seemed to help. Please do not give up your dream of having a baby. Do the doctors have any explanation on why this happened? Do you think you have an incompetent cervix? If you need anyone to talk to, you can PM me. Again, I am so sorry for your loss.
Traci
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1st IVF Twin girls lost due to incompetent cervix at 21 weeks on 4-21-03.
9-1-03 Miscarriage
2nd IVF 4-04 Successful, It's a boy!
FET 11-28-05 - BFP! It's a girl!
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oh Karen!
You poor thing. Please know that you are in my thoughts. This must be such a horrible time. You have been there for so many of us, I know I am not alone when I say take care, and if I can ever do anything, please say.
hugs
Teeg
I miscarried last night (tmi) 
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