 I was mortified!!!!!
I am sharing this here, because it is a safe place for me, and I know that some of you out there will be able to understand how I felt. Let me start this off to say that I have been having a realy hard time lately. My agorophobia and panic attacks have been coming back again. And I feel like I am on the battlefield all the time. So I was allready feeling pretty wrung out when it happend. In our house, we need furniture badly. And we plan on getting some in the Spring with our tax $$$ but for right now we are using those molded plastic yard chairs. The cheapies from Wal-Mart. Now I do not know what the weight limit is on those, but I am certainly over it. I hang out of the sides under the arm rests. Well, we have hard wood floors in our lbedroom, and I sat down in one of the plastic chairs to talk to my dh while he was home for lunch today. When I sit in those chairs on that floor, I can feel the legs start to slide out, but I usually can kinda shift around and they line back up. There is one chair that has been making a cracking noise when I sit at my computer desk, on a carpeted floor, but I thought it was at the computer, not in my bedroom. So, as I was saying, I was talking to my dh, when I felt the legs start to spread, and I shifted around thingking it was going to fix the problem, but instead of helping, it made it worse. The next thing I knew I heard a CRACK!!!!! and I was on the floor. This is a fat person's worst nightmare. I was so humiliated!!! I have had it happen once before to me when I was a teenager in a room full of teen's at church camp. And I was just as mortified then as I was today. I picked myself up off the floor and managed to get to my bed and I just cried and cried. I apoligized to dh about the chair and he said that he did not give a beep about the chair. But I was still so embarassed!!! I just want to crawl under a rock somewhere. My self esteem was minimal to begin with. But now..... All I can hear are the negative fat comments. The fact that I lost 7# over the last two weeks is not making any difference. So now I have a bruised rear end as well as a bruised pride. I can only pray that my back was not messed up to much. I will know more tomorrow and Mon. We'll see. Thanks for listening.
God Bless you and yours
Hears The Water | 
Kathryn
