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11-19-2006, 02:08 PM
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I should have a 2 yr old this comming Thanksgiving. I feel like "How the hell can I be *thankful* when my child isn't with me" At the SAME time here I sit and am SO thankful for my (almost) 9 month old son! THen I am mad as hell that I lost my second child! WHen you think of it ... there is no way on GOD's green earth I could have child #2 and Normie, so why am I mad/sad with the 2nd loss? THis THanksgiving will be so VERY hard. All I keep thinking is about I should have a 2 yr old! Today was the 1st tie I didn't think about it in a week, as we are busy packing and moving, but as I "relax" my mind goes right to my 1st child! WHY? WHY? WHY? Why does this happen to ANYONE? I hate that my body is so screwed up and I am like this. As of late (like past 2 weeks or so) all I do is cry myself to sleep. My mind keeps going to the way I lost my 1st.
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11-19-2006, 02:44 PM
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roxie im so sorry **hugs**
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11-20-2006, 01:32 PM
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sain Thank you. I just can't believe how sad I am. THis just SUCKS. IT's something no one should have to go through this! | |
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11-20-2006, 03:08 PM
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i think about my baby all the time too and how he/she should be two aswell xx
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11-20-2006, 03:56 PM
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Hey sweetie. I am so sorry. I know exactly what you are feeling. Alex would have been 2 on the 9th. Yet, if I had not lost Alex or Sydney I wouldn't have Emma. But you cannot trade one for the other, KWIM? I want them all! Even though I know that that is impossible. Just give Norm a big hug and try to make it though the holidays the best that you can.
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11-21-2006, 11:43 PM
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there is no way on GOD's green earth I could have child #2 and Normie, so why am I mad/sad with the 2nd loss?
| We have the right to be grateful and sad at the same time. Now that you know how much fun Normie is, you can be even more sad/mad that you don't get to have those experiences with your first two.  to you Roxie. | |
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11-21-2006, 11:50 PM
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thank you ladies. Everyday when I wake... I thank the good Lord for Normie. At night ... I cry for my lost children. You ladies make me feel "less" nuts when I post about being happy/sad/mad all at the same time, thanks again
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11-30-2006, 10:54 AM
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((Roxie)), sometimes I look at Dominici and totally lose it because it's not fair that his big brother's not here. And watching him grow and learn thrills me, but it's also a sad reminder that Rivi's never going to do those things. You're definitely not nuts. | |
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