What do you do when you lose the happy you? I'm sure I was once very happy, I seem to remember it, I remember being carefree but now all I do is worry. I can't remember what the difference is between that me and now. I can't remember when exactly it happened. It could have been when my brother died eight years ago. But he'd be p**sed off with me if I used him as an excuse. I feel broken...... I used to be funny and clever. Now I don't feel like I have anything to say. Other peoples lives have moved on, new citys to live in, new relationships etc. Can you get back what you think you've lost or do just have to accept whats happened learn to live with it and move on even if you know you used to be happier?? I try to be happy and sometimes I am, I try to be positive and make decisions but feel lonely most of the time. I don't see my friends very often because they've moved away so I don't feel like burdening them when I do see them.....
I hope you don't mind me burdening you all but it feels good to write things down.
Ah, Jules. I'm sorry your "happy" is misplaced, but you can find it again, you truly can. You may have to look really, really hard. You may have to do some repair work on it and you might have to ask for help. But, it's there, somewhere. I promise. I'm sorry about the loss of your brother. I lost a very special person, my niece. I know it hurts. I try to visualize something when I'm sad, something that made her happy. It makes me feel as though she is with me somehow. Maybe that would help Hugs to ya, Lendi
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Reading this post literally brought tears to my eyes....
It is EXACTLY how I described myself to my husband. I too KNOW that I used to be a funny, carefree, and joyous person...but I am not sure what happened to me...
StaciieM
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I've lost the happy me 
Jules
StaciieM
