TissieLish

I Want...
I want to see two lines, instead, I see only one
I want to "know" I'm pregnant, instead, I "know" I'm not
I want to feel morning sickness, instead, I feel the sickness of knowing this was not our time
I want to have "Baby Asprin" for the baby, instead, I have it in hopes it will help to make a baby
I want to take Robitussin for the mucus in my lungs, instead, I take it for the mucus in my...um...
I want to take prenatals to nurture the soul inside my own, instead, I take it "Just In Case"
I want to see ultrasound pictures of our baby, instead, I see ultrasound pictures of my "broken" ovaries
I want to cry for the "Joy of Knowing", instead, I cry for the "Pain of Knowing"
I want to tell my husband "come feel, it's kicking again", instead I tell him " don't touch me, that pain is back again"
I want to decorate the nursery, instead, it's filled with dust covered boxes
I want to feel the pain of contractions, instead, I feel the pain of another month gone astray
I want to hear our baby cry, instead, I hear myself cry
I want to hold our baby for the first time, instead, I hold onto that dream
I want to hear my husband yell "honey come look, he's trying to walk", instead, I hear "honey come look, here's something new to try"
I want to "know" this one will make it, instead, I feel the pain and see the blood, knowing my body gave up on me, one last time
I want to see two lines...


I wrote this last night, I've been kinda depressed the last couple of days and writing this poem has helped me through (just a little) so I wanted to share with all of you. Hope you like it!

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loofah

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That is a beautiful poem. It touched my heart when i read it.

Thanks for sharing this with us

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MADHOUSE

I liked your poem it my me cry as it's just what I want to.

Thank's Again tissielish for sharing it with us systers