Hello
Not sure what to type soooo... I was diagnosed a few years ago, by a begrudging Dr who wanted to give me a pregnancy test every month until AF arrived (?!?!?!?!!! um, I was single? Duh.)
Eventually had bloodtests and ultrasound - tests came back fine, ultrasound showed PCOS and another v large cyst that was whipped out with laparoscopy. Sadly I had a very early miscarriage shortly after. I honestly don't know if I got pg after the surgery, or if I was already pg at that time but too early for the standard test to pick it up?
Symptom-wise, I am fairly lucky in that i have a little bit of everything and that nothing immediately seems wrong. However this just means most Drs assume I drive to KFC for dinner every day. Why don't I lose weight they ask. Well, I've only been trying over a decade!!
So I'm not fat enough to qualify for any NHS help, ditto for acne, hair, depression / moods.
Dianette and other pills have stopped helping, to the point where the last pack of dianette I took made me extremely depressed and withdrawn. I've now decided to try a more natural, diet / supplement approach.
So there's the massive intro, now for the soul searching!
I reeeeeeeeally want a baby.
Really, really, really.
Trouble is, I am/was THE most child-phobic person so the biological clock has come as a bit of a shock!
I am only 25, but I want to be a mum while I have energy to cope. I don't have much money, but that's ok. I don't have a permanent home - that is NOT ok! (Renting a room currently, instead of a place of my own).
I am with someone, but only for a few months so "that talk" is out of the question!!!
I feel like I can't talk to anyone in "real life" because I have this tomboy persona, I've never gone gooey over babies, and I've somewhat shot myself in the foot by announcing how uninterested I was in them for the last few years....
I just have this...ache? Whenever I see someone with a pram out and about, or even go past baby clothes in shop. There is an element of jealousy / bitterness - someone I used to know is on pregnancy number 4 or 5, and without meaning to sound judgemental, I know social / welfare agencies have been involved heavily
I think this has also built up recently because I'm booked in to have a IUD (copper, not Mirena) fitted. My logic was it would be contraception without messing around with hormones. My head knows it is the right thing to do. But my heart is screaming "FIVE YEARS?!?!?! FIVE YEARS to wait before even trying?!?!"
I know no-one can really offer a solution, or tell me what to do, I just needed to put these things "out there".
And if you read this epic tale then
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Intro, soul-searching, new here but not to PCOS 
can you see a different dr?? i had to change gp surgery to get pcos help...... your dr saying you dont qualify for help on the nhs doesnt sound right to me.
