Thread: Its been a year already...

...i remember last valentines day...exactly a week after Aimee and Dana were born and taken to Heaven...how i thought i'd never make it through another day. I cant believe they would be a year old already.

I had all these plans...how i'd commemorate them...and i didnt...couldnt...do anything. All i did was have day dreams of them with pig tails and crawling around my living room floor...giggling while i chased them into the kitchen...the dreams were so vivid it was like i had true memories of them...

my husband brought me home two baby pink long stemmed roses...and i just cried...but then i was okay til my sister sent me a bouquet that said 'remembering with you'...and that was it...i just shut down. I couldnt think about them...i tried to remember the horror of that day and found i couldnt...its like my brain shut it out. Sighhhhhhh...

I heard a song on the cmt station...it was called 'didnt know my name'...he wrote a song from the point of view of a baby who was miscarried...how it was taken by the hand and walked to Heaven...and there at the end of the video you see two little girls...side by side...walking into the light with this cowboy (the singer). I really think that my girls send me signs...that might sound weird...but i think they find ways to let me know they're okay. Sounds dumb but it makes me feel better.

Anyway sorry for my rambling...i just wanted to say

happy birthday to my angel babies...hoping the angels make you pigtails...like i would...

love mommie

to the strongest mommy I know....
those are most definitely your daughters saying "hi momma'.....sounds like you did a wonderful job remembering them yesterday. Two pink roses, some personal tears, some joyful "what would have been smiles', and a great song. They most definitely have the cutest pig tails....and the most contagious giggles. Go catch them.....
Keep on believing in angels!!!!

Kim you made me cry I too believe in signs & I bet that song was a sign from your girls.

{{{{HUGS}}}}

And you are a very strong mommy
Traci

i firmly believe that my angels are in heaven watching over me and their dad and sisters and brother. and i also believe when you 'feel' things, like you did listening to that song, that it's really a sign letting you know that it's ok. your girls are watching over you now and you respect their memory the best way you can and that's all you can do. they don't expect anything from you that you can't give them.

my shane was born 3 days after i miscarried the year before. and although i miss that baby terribly, i can't let my pain cast a shadow on shane. when the miscarriages pop into my head, or the what could have beens, i remember and sometimes cry and my heart hurts but i know they are in heaven watching out for me now and we'll meet up someday.

I cried, too. I don't have too many dreams about Rivi anymore (I used to dream about him in Heaven, sitting by a creek, under a tree, reading a book. I'd sit next to him and we'd talk). Maybe he knows that I'm doing better now. I wish I could have more of those dreams, though!

Thanks Clarissa and everybody...its so nice to be able to share my innermost thoughts with you who understand...and really care...i really feel your support and thats what i need sometimes...i hope i can do the same for you.

and just in case you change your mind...or are interested at a later time...the singer is George Canyon...he was runner up on Nashville Star i think...sort of like the idol show for country music. Its a nice song...and i have to say its comforting in a way...

Hugs to you all