Tired

Hey all,

I thought I might link a diary that I am starting to write. I thought maybe if I just start writing what is on my mind (when I can remember to do so) it might let others know we have some things in common, but sometimes we are on our own as well. I don't know...I just thought that maybe writing down daily thoughts might help someone else. I'll warn you that the first few posts in this may be well, depressing I try to be upbeat, but I've had a bad month and as such I sound all sad and moody Please forgive that. But I believe if I were happy all the time, I wouldn't know what being happy meant. Anyway...if any of you wish to submit anything to the diary as well, I'd love to put it in as a "guest" writer day...if I don't have anything substantial or new to say. Let me know the link is below.



http://daycjw.blogspot.com/

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But I'm not calm. It's all a lie. It's just that when everybody else is screaming, somebody has to be mature and unemotional, so I have these brain-dead moments where I don't react the way any sane human being would. I stay completely calm and ignore my feelings and compromise and make everything work again. And I'm not going to do that anymore. Screw calm. Somebody else is going to have to do mature because I'm going to be selfish and get what I want.

276lbs = 106lbs to go! (Goal 170lbs)