And it just gets worse

heather090702 · 07-25-2005, 01:58 PM

My grandmother died this morning. She is at peace now and I have made peace with it.

DH took the day off work to be with me and because he needed to make some calls and do some errands. He was all set to start a new job next week, a great opportuinity for us with more money, set his own hours and all the over-time he wanted. That was until they closed down the division he was going to be working in. We found out this morning. So, he was supposed to be finished at his job this Friday. He quit there because he was not making the money they promised when he was hired. We are under such financial stress as it is and now he has no job. We have NOTHING saved and bills piling up plus our little DD. Let's not even get me started on health insurance. So, I am having a beauty of a panic attack. Everything just feels like it is crashing down around me. Whenever we feel like something is going great and we have a chance to get things together, they always fall apart. Why can't we just catch a break. Ok, I need to go cry some more.

Heather

hellofromangie · 07-25-2005, 05:41 PM

Hi Heather,

I am very sorry about your grandmothers death. I wish I knew the right words to bring you some comfort and take away your sadness. You have the pain of losing your grandmother, along with the added stress of your dh losing his job. I am sending love to you and your family, during this very difficult time in your lives.

Angie

Gunnie · 07-25-2005, 05:47 PM

Wow! I am sooooo sorry for your loss and your husband's job loss. That is devastating! I know it's tough now, but it sounds like the only direction you can go is up. Keep the faith my friend, and know that there are many cysters here to help you through this. It's time to make lemonade and check back here often for that needed support.

JeannieNB · 07-25-2005, 06:49 PM

I'm so sorry Heather. That is a lot to take in, for anyone. You have every right to be upset. Take care of yourself though.

KatrinaAnne · 07-25-2005, 07:12 PM

Heather,

~*Hugs*~ to you sweetheart. My heart aches for you...and I know the pain and worry that you are experiencing right now is overwhelming. I want to tell you that I am so very sorry to hear about the loss of your grandmother...I know how much she meant to you..and to lose someone that you love and care for so very much is so devastating...and I know words can not be that much of a comfort to you, but I want you to know I am so very sorry. When you said that your grandmother was at peace, you were absolutely right and I hope that this provides you with some comfort.

It seems like misery certainly does like company...and it always seems that tragedies build on top of one another. I am so very sorry that you and your husband are experiencing this kind of stress. I feel completely terrible and I certainly wish there was more that I could do. If you ever need to talk sweetheart, please know that I am always here to listen. I may not always have the best advice to give, but I want you to know that I truly care and I am sorry.

I will be keeping you in my thoughts and lighting a candle for you, your grandmother, your husband, your daughter, and all of your loved ones and make sure that I say a prayer as well. We love you Heather...and please know we are here for you.

::Hugs::

Binxsmommy · 07-25-2005, 07:24 PM

I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother and everything else your going through right now..... I've been there too everything just seems to pile up on top it's just to overwhelming I know but at least your here talking to us instead of holding it in, my problem not only was everything piling up but i couldnt seem to talk to anyone either. It will turn around comfort yourself for now little things bathe, rent a movie, make DH cook dinner whatever will make you feel better top it off with some chcolate to get those feel good horones flowing and breathe things will get better soon

heather090702 · 07-26-2005, 12:02 AM

Hi Everyone, thank you for the replies, you always make me feel better. The day actually did get worse lol. AF made a lovely appearance causing some serious cramps and a headache I really didn't need. I decided to take a small break from my diet and DH was supposed to bring home some comfort food but it was DISGUSTING! So that made my mood even worse. THEN....my grandmother was going to take Hailey tomorrow to give me a break but because it is going to be like 100 degrees, Hailey can't go because she only has AC in her bedroom and I don't want her to be in that heat.

Ok, I'm done. Tomorrow is a new day and I am so grateful for my cysters and so grateful for my family and life WILL be better because Lord knows the SUN will be out tomorrow lol.

Heather

A.T. · 07-26-2005, 12:37 AM

Heather,
My condolences to you and your family. Know that your grandmother is home now. I know it's hard to think that way and understand at this moment. I know what you are talking about when you say financial stress. I have been with my husband for 5 years and married for 10 months and it's been no honeymoon (besides the fact that we had no money to take one anyway). He is in the warehouse industry and EVERY job he has had in the past 5 years has laid him off. So, he jumps around from job to job and he's usually unemployed for long periods of time (1 year the longest). In March I lost my job and he had no job, so there we were with nothing in the bank, nothing saved, just a whole lot of nothing. I would cry to him, my parents, my friends, whoever. I needed someone to understand!! As of now we are in a somewhat better situation. I got my job back, but he has no job still. We broke our lease for our apartment in June and gave our 60 day notice. We need to be out of here by Aug. 14th. We were ready to move into my parent's basement, but we are trying to find another apartment. We are waiting for one to get back to us to see if we've been approved. If we don't, we need to keep looking and hopefully find somewhere to go. I KNOW what you are feeling. I KNOW what you are going through. I wish I had more words of wisdom to offer, but I don't. I don't even quite understand it sometimes myself. If you throw the PCOS, depression, panic attacks, and arguments (we argued A LOT during our rough time), it just makes things feel so much worse. I tell people I'm going to run away one day and today is one day that I really feel like running away and being by myself would do me and my husband some good. I think our relationship is still trying to recover with all that has happened to us since March. I don't know if you believe in God, but when I'm thinking much more clearly I pray that He lead me in the direction I need to go in. May He shed His light on you and your family. A friend once told me that even the most precious metals in the world must endure the highest heat and pressure to become strong. You are in my thoughts.

heather090702 · 07-26-2005, 01:20 AM

Thank you A.T. Your words were kind and very meaningful to me. I know I am not alone but it really does help to know that others understand what I am going through. I really hope things work out the best for you and your DH. You will be in my thoughts as well.

Heather

choirmissy · 07-26-2005, 12:16 PM

Aw Heather, when it rains, it pours. First, I am so sorry to hear about your grandma. Even when you're at peace with the death, it's still a very stressful and emotional time. Second, maybe your grandmother could watch Hailey at your place and just give you time to get out of the house and to get away. I am so sorry to hear about your husband's job. My husband has been through more jobs than I can count. It seems that every time we get caught up on bills, he loses the next one, and the cycle starts all over again. I completely understand the stress over money. Are there any temp agencies that he could work for until he finds a full-time job again? They usually aren't a lot of money, but some is better than none. Plus, a lot of temp jobs are temp to hire. I'll be thinking about you. I hope things get better for you soon.

heather090702 · 07-26-2005, 01:51 PM

Thank you missy and thank you for the gift, the sun made me smile. My grandmother can't come here because she watches some of her other grandkids during the summer as well. And I am stuck in the house because we are down to 1 car until we can afford to get DH's car fixed, so that makes it tough. It is hard to be stuck inside all day.

I am looking forward to September when I will be back in school. I have always done well in school and it makes me feel better about myself. My Grandmother will be taking Hailey 2 days a week so I can attend classes.

Thank you all again! So far today is a better day.

Heather

TickledPink · 07-26-2005, 02:34 PM

I am so sorry!

Be sure and ake some time for you!

(((((hugs)))))