Just a little about my story...

ssaunders1187 · 09-20-2006, 04:23 PM

I don't think I have ever told the full story of my m/c to my cysters.. so here it goes:
On Feb. 17, 2005 I had my first prenatal appointment. I had conceived on accident. At the time my boyfriend and I had been together for about a year and a half. When we went for the appointment I should have been about 7 weeks, the DR did an exam and decided to do an u/s to date the pregnancy. We got excited when she pulled the heartbeat on the screen until she said.. it seems a little slow. My babys heart was only beating at 67bpm. The doctor explained to us in these words "I will have you come back in a week for another u/s there will either be a hearbeat or there won't" I bawled for a straight to days but tried to pull myself together. ON 2/25/05 I went for the second u/s with a ton of hope. When the tech said to me "I hate to be the.. " I lost it. The doctor explained to me I could wait for the m/c to happen naturally or I could have a d&c. I chose the d&c I was not strong enough to go through a real miscarriage. It was like a dream. I went under anesthesia pregnant, and came out without a baby. My boyfriend looked at it as a blessing, but pretended to care for my sake. I was heartbroken and convinced him to try for another baby. We "tried" which was more like two people who didnt love eachother pretending to like one another. About two weeks before my boyfriend and I's two year anniversary we broke up. And ended everything. He called me crazy for being so emotional over the baby.

Being away from him helped me heal. I started to date,and go out with friends again.. until I met Gary in January 06-- my fiance-- and the only man I was made for. He worked with my ex for a while and knew about my situation. He listened to my heartbreak and comforted me. He remembered to be sensitive to me on mother's day and on the one year "anniversary" of my d&c he held me while I cried. He considers my loss as his own. We have been together almost 8 months and we are now expecting a child together. I was very nervous, but now I feel like my angel is watching over us.

My angel was due on Oct 7 2005, he/she would have been one year old next month. Gary and I will remember him/her on that day.

Thank you all for listening.

siany22 · 09-20-2006, 05:42 PM

u sound better off without ur ex! hugs to u 4 wat uve been through ur angel will always be lookin over u and ur child

xx

SheriKCMO · 09-24-2006, 04:43 AM

I'm so sorry for your loss! I wish you and DF the best.

*Clarissa* · 09-24-2006, 05:58 AM

I am so sorry for your loss. I felt the same way about my D&C, going under pg coming out not. I even had a panic attack in the recovery room. It was awful and I hate to hear when others have went though it too.

You are very lucky to have a man like Gary. I know you will always think of the x since he was with you during this tradgedy and is the father of the child you lost. But it sounds like you have a wonderful partner now. Congratualtions on your pregnancy and your upcoming marriage.

HUGS!

lovepotato · 09-24-2006, 07:48 PM

I'm so sorry about your baby, and your ex. He's a jerk, and you're better off without him. Which I'm sure you know.

I do love hearing stories about great guys though. Gary sounds wonderful. I'm so glad you found someone that really loves you, and your angel baby.

Congratulations on your new baby and your new relationship!

ssaunders1187 · 09-26-2006, 10:39 PM

Thank you everyone, for reading. It's so unfortunate that we have to go through these things.