Just need to get this off my chest

Cristy · 11-10-2003, 12:24 AM

Hi, I'm getting married in 68 days and I can't wait! I am so excited to finally be marrying the love of my life and he makes me so happy but there is two problems,

1# The thought of him seeing me every morning kills me, why? because of my acne scars, my hair, the ugly purple circles I have constantly under my eyes, I look so horrible. I know he doesn't care and that he loves me but I care. I never want him to see me with a hairy chin or with ugly red pimples.

2# I barely ovulate. This last year, I have ovulated 3 times. We want children so badly, I feel like such a failure.

I think I am emotional because yesterday I saw my beautiful neice. She is so precious. She is only 4 months old and I just love her as if she were my own. I saw the way my Df was with her and I he deserves to be a father. He is such a good man.

God gives me hope and I have to continue to have faith that some day it will happen. I think I'm over reacting a little. We haven't even started ttc yet lol. I'm in one of those moods today and I have a flu and I just want to vent.

Thanks for listening to this, I hope it all made sense

oohmercyme · 11-10-2003, 12:54 AM

HIya Cristy~ Congrats on the upcoming wedding! Obviously you know that this guy loves you so I won't go into all that. But I did want to tell you a story about love and chin hair.

This past Christmas my Opoe (Dutch for grandmother) was in the hosptial with breast cancer. I took my Opa (Dutch for grandfather) to the hosptial everyday to see her. They have been married for 67 years (68 this coming May) and this is the first Christmas they spent apart.

Anyway, we get there and greet my Opoe and then my Opa pulls an electric shaver out of his bag and gives it to his wife. While she has been in the hospital, she has been unable to shave her chin hairs. He noticed this and knows how much it bothers her and he brought the electric razor so that she could take care of it! He handed it to her without a word and she returned it without a word. And when the moment passed, they began flirting with each other like they were teenagers.

It brought tears to my eyes then and it brings tears to my eyes now. Thats what I call love!

All the best in your marriage!

indiana_troll · 11-10-2003, 09:32 AM

My hubby and I have been married for 10 yrs. If I don't feel like shaving or plucking the chin hairs, he will take the tweezers and do it for me. I think he just likes to inflict pain on me.

If a man loves you so much that he wants to marry you, there is nothing, not even the horrible way we all look in the mornings, that will make him love you any less. So, congratulations on your upcoming wedding. And worry about how the ceremony and reception are going to turn out. Not how nasty you look first thing in the morning. I bet your soon to be hubby doesn't look much better himself.

Patty

Cristy · 11-10-2003, 10:06 PM

Thanks ladies. I feel so much better after reading your comments. I also feel really silly after reading over my post lol

I have just been a little emotional lately. I feel like everything is 10 times worse then it is when I get into these depressive moods.

Thanks for listening