I dont really knw where to post this but I figured her since I am depressed about it.
I want another baby so bad. Every time I see a baby I want one. I loved being PG, it was such a rewarding experience. I know I should be happy with being blessed once, and I am. I cant put into words how much I love DS. But that does not make it any easier. I hate the thought of having to do all that fertility stuff, I mean I just hate the idea of it....for me. I dont know if I am emotionally strong enough to handle it.
WHY WHY WHY do we have to deal with this? DH wants a baby too, and he is so understanding but he thinks I will just get a PG again. Just like that. I feel like a failure as woman. I cant give DS a sibling.
Nicole
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Nicole, I'm sorry. I can understand a little how you feel about having to go through it all again. It is very difficult.
I dont doubt that you love DS very much. I know I love mine to pieces. I was blessed to get pregnant too and we have started talking about when to try again. I am really excited that we are going to try again in about a year, but I am not so excited about the medications and failures and waiting. BUT, the plus is that we have everyone here.
YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE. However, I do completely understand that. I dont ovulate at all...doesnt that mean that I am not completely a woman? That thought circles in my head every now and then. It doesnt make anyone less than a woman just because we need a little help. If you find the strength to go through the process DS will have a sibling. But, if you cant, it doesnt mean that he will be cheated of anything. Not as long as you and your DH are there for him.
I hope you feel better soon. If you need to vent, please feel free to PM me or post to us or whatever your love-filled heart desires.
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I do such a good job of keeping my chin, but then bam out of no where I get all these feelings. I just hate not being able to just get PG. I really resent people who get PG freely and act like they cant stand it. Like its such a burden to be PG...
I read post from other cysters who have been TTC for years and I feel so bad sometimes. I hate that any woman has to go thru this. It is such a horrible feeling. I hate to hear women with perfectly healthy PG complain and talk about how horrible it is....I am WTF? You wanna know horrible come to SC and read some of our stories. Horrible is suffering so many MC that you are scared to death to get PG again. I never even experienced this but I take it personally.
I dont even know what I am saying here....I just am having a moment. My best friend is PG and my cousin is PG and my co-worker just had a baby.
Rant over.
Nicole
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Nicole, I totally get what you are saying. It seems so unfair sometimes. I recently got preg, but still with PCOS one can't just relax and enjoy a pregnancy. My DD wants a "real baby" so bad, part of my anguish was my inability to be a good mommy to her and to give her the sibling that she desired. People who do not struggle have no idea what it means to struggle with fertility issues. I am sirry that you are having a bad time. You are not alone. It is so unfair!! Especially when we are good and responsible mommies and then the 15 yo down the street gets a baby!! I will send up a prayer or two for you tonight!
Its so hard sometimes to just deal with. My in-laws always ask us when we are going to have another, I wish it were just that easy. I feel ok today, it just seems like all at once I get this yearning feeling. I have been taking met for a few months now and still have not seem AF.
Thanks for listening
Nicole
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Just one more. 
WHY WHY WHY do we have to deal with this? DH wants a baby too, and he is so understanding but he thinks I will just get a PG again. Just like that. I feel like a failure as woman. I cant give DS a sibling. 
Nicole, I'm sorry. I can understand a little how you feel about having to go through it all again. It is very difficult.
