I was in the shower a couple days ago, and my mind was wandering as it tends to do. Well for some reason I started thinking about my PCOS, which though it is definitely something I deal w/ every day, I try not to think about it TOO much anymore (I've spent too much time dwelling on the symptoms over the years, before I knew what it was). I started thinking about some of the stares I've gotten from people, or rude comments either said directly to me or I heard muttered as I walked by. Then I started thinking about all the close friends that I have, who have never said a word about my hair issues or even my weight. They didn't let my physical appearance keep them from getting to know me. Then for some reason, it crossed my mind that perhaps this syndrome is more of a blessing, than a curse that I always felt it was (especially felt that way when I had no idea about the condition, and thought I was just some freak). I'm a religious person, and I firmly believe that God doesn't give you any trials that you cannot handle (w/ His help of course). To me, that means that He has enough trust in me, and in all of you, that we can handle this. We can continue to live a wonderful life despite, or maybe because of this. I feel like we have to be strong women just to live and function in an every day life when physical appearance is valued so highly in this society. I also feel like having my own problems that I really didn't chose to have, helps me to be less judgmental of others. I was also thinking about my personality and how I'm so trusting of people, more trusting then I should be at times I think. I don't know if I'm wording this to make much sense, but I was wondering if maybe if I didn't have PCOS, I would have gotten either walked over or taken advantage of more. I feel like some people are dissuaded from talking to me or trying to get to know me because of my appearance. But the people that have are very good people, and are the kind of people that I would want to associate w/ anyways. I think an example of this is w/ guys. I'm 22, still very single and hate it. However, the kind of guy that I'm going to want to be with forever is going to be one that can look past my PCOS and accept me for who I am. Guys that can't look past it and see me for more than that, aren't the kind of guys that I want to associate w/ anyways. So maybe my PCOS has been sort of a shield, blocking those kind of guys. Hopefully one day I will be able to find a guy that will accept me for me, including my PCOS. Until then, I'm going to continue living my life, and try not to let PCOS wear on my confidence level more than it already has. Middle school and high school were miserable for me. It was just this past summer that I really learned about PCOS, and that that was what was causing my weird symptoms. Just the KNOWING has improved things greatly. I think the medication has been helping, though I haven't been on it the way I need to be (due to insurance issues and taking forever to get my refills). I have however noticed more hair growth on top, which is good, cuz I've had a HUGE bald spot up there for a long time. Anyways, I don't know if my thoughts came across clearly but they were pretty clear for me that morning in the shower. I admire so many of you for your stories and experiences, and being able to share them. We are the way that God made us to be, anyone that doesn't like it can just deal w/ it. We're beautiful women too.
Very interesting. Made me think...so the friends we have are TRUE friends. Ones that do not judge on the outside, rather get to know the inside. What a blessing this is if you can look at it that way.
Also, my husband loves me for ME. He loves all my fluff and the fact that we both have to "shave". Well, I don't know if he loves that, but he definately accepts that and does not let that affect his love for me. I am a blessed woman. Thanks for making me see the other side of PCOS.
Thanks for that post!
I sometimes wonder how my life would be, if I didn't look this way. Most people would think that there wouldn't be any tradeoffs for the worse. But in my case there would be. Two examples: the sexual harassment I'd experience in my professional life would be ten-fold. I live alone and I used to worry about serial killers but I came to the realization that they usually don't target women that outweigh them by 100lbs and have a receding hairline.
Rebecca
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well I'm sorry for any sexual harrassment you have experienced, but that's a good example of what I was kinda getting at. I really think that in some ways my PCOS has been somewhat of a protection. Which it's kinda weird that I'm starting to see it that way, considering I've been wishing for the symptoms to be gone since puberty, but I really do think it goes both ways. I think there are some "tradeoffs" as you put it. Now I don't know what my life would be like w/o it, but it would DEFINITELY change who I am today. And I think there would be stuff that was worse. Can't say for sure what exactly, but I know there would be.
i just have to say i liked that i posted these thoughts, cuz when I do start thinking the other way, i can come here and reread it and remind myself. Even w/ the realization, life happens and sometimes i still feel as if PCOS is more of a curse. Oh well, I'm human
What a beautiful post Sarbear - straight from your heart. Im trying to think more like that as well. PCOS may be a curse but in many ways it has made me a stronger more accepting person. Whilst I'm not a religious person I think its great that your faith is giving you strength. Im on a "life journeys" tangent at the moment and trying to accept that this is mine and focusing on the negatives (hair and crap) all the time will not bring me the happiness i know i deserve. I will figure out a way to beat this damn condition - if not physically then emotionally.
Once again thank you for your post, it made my day.
Cheers'
Kel
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i'm glad you guys can see and understand somewhat what I mean. That's what I was going for when i originally posted it. It's so easy to concentrate on the negatives and complain about the condition, that when I did have that moment in which I saw things a different way, I knew it was something I needed to share w/ everyone.
just sharing some thoughts I had the other day 
