lovegoddess1977

Glad to see that this board is staying active! I have a job interview today. I HATE my job that I have right now and I think that I am ready to go. I had a job interview yesterday and I wasn't very impressed. I would be taking a big paycut. The one I have today is only a mile from my house so that would be great for saving gas. Also, I would be making almost the same amount of money! I would be wiling to take a VERY SMALL paycut in order to be happier at my job!

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I am sick to death of:

PCOS
Whiners
Converters
Fluff Bunnies
and most of all.....Selfishness

Treat others as you would want to be treated!!!!



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Beckles

I did not discover women until I moved from my home town when I was 19. I met my now hubby, we discussed 3somes and such. It started out as a thought of being with someone for him and turned into me realizing I like women more than men.

I dream of women, I love women. If I was not with my husband, I am not sure I would want to be with a man.

A few months ago I had this awesome dream of me and another man.. I woke up so ready to have sex... I WAS LIKE OH NO!! I MUST BE BECOMING STRAIGHT!! LOL

But mostly I dream about women, mostly about a good friend of mine who lives pretty far away. I have such real dreams about her. I want to touch her, taste her just smell her and be near her. I have not felt that way about anyone else in such a long time. I miss her so much.

So hmm mmaybe I will go into more detail later lol.

Oh by the way I run a group on yahoo called rainbowmoms.. if you are interested in joining I am sure we would love some livening up in that group!

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asrai

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Hetaera

I'm interested in that yahoo group! maybe I'll join

Im still alive I promise....
I made a commitment that I wouldnt get on the computer if Arien was awake, so that he and I will play more... even though he is perfectly happy playing with his toys, I feel bad sitting here when he is awake. Thats why Ive not been posting much!

Ive become more cynical lately... it seems that everyone I meet isnt worth the effort of keeping up the relationship (friendship or whatever) I hate being judgemental... but I find myself distancing myself from certain groups of people... because even though they might be nice people, they're people I disagree with on a very basic level... and nothing deep could ever come of my interaction with them because of that...
so thats whats going on with me lately... glad to see theres posts here to read!
<3 you all.

kimstagg

I totally know what you mean. I feel that way a lot too. I just try to live through it. I know that's not really good advice, but I'm a firm believer in different phases of life. Hugs to you!

Hetaera

yeah, I knoew what you mean... Ive been through this before... Like after the election when not only did ohio go to bush (which to me was depressing enough) but when the anti gay marriage issue passed... I felt so sad. betrayed by humanity...
sometimes things happen that restore my faith in people, then something else happens that totally destroys it for a while.. usually it comes back...
thanks for letting me talk about it.

Scoot

Oooh, my first chance to tell my story!

Actually it's not all that interesting. I just started posting on the boards tonight. I suppose I could post this in the "what's your story" thread but I figure this might be a better place for a brief synopsis. I consider myself bisexual but heteroamorous, so far. I'm twenty years old, and have only had one relationship, and that was a 6-year-long one with a man. I tend to fall in love with men, like my ex for example, and once I was in love I "became accustomed" to having sex with him, for lack of a better phrase, but he's the only man I've been with and ultimately I am more sexually attracted to women. I like to say I love everything about men except their whatnots. I've never been with a girl - never even kissed one - but it isn't just a mere curiosity, I "just know" I'd be very passionate about a woman sexually - it just hasn't happened yet. I've had opportunities with friends who wanted to "fool around" for the entertainment of male company and whatnot, but I've always sort of rolled my eyes at that sort of "bisexual for show" thing. I haven't ever been emotionally or romantically interested in a woman, though, and that's where the "heteroamorous" part comes in. Perhaps I just haven't met the right woman. I've always been very open about my desires for both men and women with my family and friends and count myself lucky to not have encountered any real adversity, except that my mother doesn't believe it's possible to be truly bisexual

So that's me! Glad to see there's a forum like this on here.

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Mariel, age 23
5'4", 218lbs
Largest IR belly known to mankind
PCOS symptomatic since 1998
Finally diagnosed October 2007
Meds: Ortho Tri-Cyclen Lo






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bluedragonfly2000

Hi Leshia, I just wanted to say that I understand about what its like to be a "cutter" I did it for most of my 20s. It is a very confusing and painful thing to understand and I found it hard to find support for that where I live. What sort of things are you doing to cope besides cutting? I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone.
Mel

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Leila

its really good to keep this forum open, I have times when im away for a while, but this is always the first place i come when i head back. i never really fancied anyone when i was younger, dated boys as that was what my friends did, then wasnt adverse to dating women, so tried that. now i consider myself gay, and cant ever imagine myself being with a man. i think i could do the sex thing as its not that bit that i think solely makes up your sexuality. i could never havea relationship with a guy again, and i find women so much more interesting to be with. i cant say i never will date a man again, as i dont believe you can say never to many things, but im very happy with women now and have been since i was 17.

as for coming out, i came out at 17 to mum and dad, well they fond out anyhow and had some real problems with it. i figure tho that it takes you a while to personally get used to being gay, so in turn why should the same not apply to yor parents? my mum turned round a year later after saying she never wanted gay people in the house, didnt want to kno about that part of my life, didn want to know my girlfriends that my ex could come and stay fro xmas or come anytime she liked. since then both my parents have become amazing about it, mum had her own "coming out" by telling all my relatives i was gay, and now she gives advice to any other parents she meets with gay children. she said" i realised that it didnt matter to me how you were living your life, as long as you were happy. id much rather you be with a woman if she makes you happy" (i love my mum, shes great!)

as far as girlfriends go, life is complicated as ever, am dating a girl but i think im having to end it, as i think that i want to be with my ex. she very badly treated me before, but this time seems different, just dont know if im being gullible and it will turn out like before?! we shall see anyway...but thats me in a nutshell

love

leila xx

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nurseychicky

I'm bringing this board back to life... (by the way, this is kinda unorganized... but you'll get the point)
I first came to this soulcysters when researching my newly diagnosed PCOS in Nov 04. I was 10 months into my marriage and ttc... it wasn't working and my neighbor had just gotten diagnosed... and we had similar symptoms, as it turned out I had it too. The marriage kinda went to hell right there.
*Flashback* When I was younger I hated skirts and pink, but loved to play with dolls... the naked ones. I used to play with a little girl named tanya, and whenever we got the dolls naked, I always felt like I had to pee... but when I went to the potty, there was no pee...
*Flash forward* Thinking about it now... I didn't have to pee... I was tingling down there, because of my beautiful blue eyed blonde haired friend and all these naked dolls laying around...funny... I was very tomboyish growing up... which was the exact opposite of what my mom wanted for me.

She was married at 40, preggo at 41 and had me at 42, I was born on my dad's 50th b-day. She always wanted a big fam, but only miscarried after me.
She is also from Colombia, South America and is a devout Catholic, I actually believe that she was a virgin at 40 until she married. I know she wanted me to get all my Catholic sacraments, grow up, date, get married and have grandbabies for her and i love my mom.
I did so many disappointing things growing up that her little foriegn heart couldn't stand, I know she will always love me but she was so disappointed... (these things include 2 suicide attempts (one on mother's day) tatoos, piercings, alcoholism, drug use, and promiscuity) there might be more but I can't remember.
Pretty much for as long as I can remember I was looking for a husband... for my mom, so I could give her grandbabies *note* I love babies too and always wanted to have them, I am deeply saddened that I may not be able to carry any.
SO I marry a pretty cool guy, we woulda made great roommates and btw we're still friends. But the marriage ended when I got diagnosed, I couldn't have babies, I did this for mom, I'm unhappy, this marriage bussiness wasn't all it was cracked up to be... not as carefree when we were dating... I was prepared to stay in the marriage, if we could get along (for mom)
but we weren't
I had a relationship with a woman when I was 19, she was 41... yeah she was older, get over it
I was ready to jump out of the closet head first, but she had just come out herself, for the very first time with me, she was an alcoholic due to all the suppression... and a little psycho... so I jumped right back in the closet and thought it would be best if I just lost the key.... I always said I was bi, because I couldn't hide all the drewl when a hot chick passed by
But I knew I wanted woman and only woman... I had sexual experiences with women here and there but they were just for fun...
I just came out to everyone but my parents in March... I can't tell them because they're 69 and 75, I'm 25.... if they died anytime near when I told them, I'd blame myself and I can't lve with that. I'm single and looking... and one day I'll find her. In a way, PCOS got me where I am today...which is why I believe everything happens for a reason these are the words I live by

dianette

I would also like to see this keep going. I just found the site tonight. I was diagnosed in 1998 (age 28), when I already had very early endometrial cancer from the effects of PCOS. I went through about a year's worth of treatment with a fantastic RE. He was great with my partner. Dr. H was one of those people who is really comfortable with gay couples, not just trying to be politically correct. Anyone know what I mean? We can feel the difference!
He saved my uterus, I started fertility drugs in 1999. After 5 miscarriages and 1 tubal, I finally was able to give up. We adopted our son in 10/2001, he was 5 days old. While I was taking the fertility drugs and doing inseminations and riding the rollercoaster I visited some other sites, but everyone seemed to be heterosexual and to have been married forever. Even when we started the adoption process, it seemed like everyone was Caucasian, wealthy and hetero and looking for the perfect white baby. We got our son, who was not the "perfect white baby". He's better. He was meant to be ours.
I hope this thread continues. We need it.

ktkat

My name is katie and I have just registered on the site. I have had PCOS for 8 years now since I was 17 it has been under control for the last six years but this last year has been hellish. I met my girlfriend six years ago and we are very very happy . I am struggling with the PCOS with her at the moment becuase this is the first time she has seen it in all its glory! Weight gain, excess hair mood swings! oh isnt it such a romantic condition!! She has been amazing though and its made us stronger if that was possible! I have jsut been diagnosed with cluster headaches too which is a nightmare, not only is it painful and disabling its also treated with steroids which make you put on weight!! oh the irony!

Somewhere under this madness of illness lurks a nice girl with a loving family and partner... she wants to be let out to have some fun!!