jay

Hi!
I'm 34yrs old and have been struggling with PCOS for last 10yrs. After a long drawn out battle with infertility which involved countless medications, IUI'S, and 3 IVF's .. none of which worked .. I have a 4yr old son whom I conceived naturally.
Lately I have been feeling so bad .. I'm 8 pounds overweight and I don't feel like going out to the gym .. I want to take my son out to play .. but drag my feet on that .. I want to go get a haircut .. manicure .. pedicure but have been postphoning it forever .. I have to go to the dentist and get my teeth cleaned...I have hair on my chin and upperlip which is getting worse .. I have been shaving but hate the shadow and discoloration .. I avoid going out to get-togethers and haven't gone out shopping for few months. Our bedroom action is also nothing to talk about .. In short I don't like to do anything .. just go through life .. I'm a qualified web designer but still not have started looking for a job after pregnancy.
Does this sound like depression or plain old lazy .. I hate myself so much .. I have no self confidence. There is no zing in my life .. what should I do to get off this cycle .. Please help. I need some enthusiasm..

Jay