I was diagnosed with PCOS when I was 14 years old I also have hypothyroidism. Now i'm 22 and life gets worse everyday, I don't look in mirrors unless I have to , my husband is not allowed in the bathroom with me, and he has never seen me undressed. I feel so alone and ashamed, I have never been able to talk about this to anyone before. My doctor is awful he always sends his PA in to see me instead of coming in his self and they have never explained to me what my hormone levels should be they just give me pills, all they say is it's not so bad, but they haven't seen my back it's HORRIBLE and I have contemplated suicide many times because of it. I don't want to hide for the rest of my life but as far as I know i'm stuck with the hair, weight, everything I don't think I can stand it much longer.
__________________ rachel22
I have 1 cat(cookie, he's a boy), and 4 White English Bulldogs(Lexus, Mercedes, Sue, and Casper the only boy)
I am so sorry you are so down. Please don't be discouraged. There are lots of success stories on this board. You are certainly not alone among Cysters.
I went through many doctors before I found one that treated me both physically and emotionally the way I deserved to be treated. Don't settle for less than a doctor who can do both for you.
I will be thinking of you today and throwing you some good vibes!!!!
Best,
Sarah
__________________ Sarah
Dx 2/03
DC's
Will 7/26/05
Andie 11/28/06
Welcome to Soulcysters! You have definitely come to the right place. As you scroll through some of the threads, you will find SO many women with similar feelings and experiences. You will get well and you will feel better about yourself, and we will help you to get there.
PLEASE don't contemplate suicide. There are so many of us who have been at the end of our ropes too. See a therapist and talk things out. You will feel better when you get things off of your chest. You have to feel better about yourself and your body image.
awwwww I feel awful for you. I am going through some of the same crap you are right now. My doctor is less than intelligent , she ordered all the wrong tests for me and my visits to her were a complete wast of time. I am now waiting to see a specialist and god only knows how long that will take or if he will be any good. But I have already promissed myself that if the specialist sucks I will not give up I will try to find another doctor. Please I urge you to do the same!!!!! you need medical help please don't stop trying. Good luck to you
__________________ DX Sept 26/2003 , also found gallstone(leaving untreated)
ME 26, DH 30
Meds: aldactone 50mgs , marvelon(2months only)
Vitamins: vitamin E 400iu , high potency multi-vitamin , flax seed oil 3000 mg, fiber supplements.
Low Carb Diet / Started september14/2003 Start Weight 250 , Goal Weight 140.
Hi!!!
I can completely relate to what you are going through--and what the ladies before me have said is true--PLEASE don't think about hurting yourself! I know that things can seem very bleak sometimes, but there really are people out there who can help you. I would suggest that you call different gynecologists and/or reproductive endocrinologists (RE's), and ask whether they treat patients with PCOS. It may take some time, but your health is definitely worth it. One thing I have learned from this is that no one knows your body better than you do, and if you feel like something is off kilter, it probably is. There are many good doctors in this world, but there are also a lot of quacks, and both you and I have been through them!
Please don't lose hope--I have often felt so low and full of shame over my PCOS symptoms that I would like to just crawl into a hole and pull the dirt over me. I am 28, and have been seeking help for my symptoms from "doctors" (using that term loosely) for 10 years, and am just now starting to get some real help. It may not seem this way now, but you are very lucky that you are still very young--there are many women who are twice your age who are just beginning to get help.
Please take care, and use this board often--there are tons of great articles and links posted in the various forums, and I certainly have learned much more from this site about PCOS than I would know without it! Good Luck!
Lonely and Ashamed 
(((hugs))) 
