Looking for Calgarian or Albertan cysters Winter/Spring 2008 - Page 13

Krystabelle · 05-15-2008, 08:00 PM

I am new to this site but happy to have stumbled across it. I was dx with PCOS in 1998 but my dr didn't know anything about it & just told me that is what they call it when you don't get AF for no reason at all so I happily went along not giving it a moments thought. I knew I would need some intervention to get preg as AF was pretty much non existent but I was hopeful when DH and I started trying, I thought I would be preg in no time at all! DH was alot more realistic than me and tried to say as much but I just told him that he didn't know for certain (never mind that I didn't either). I did manage to get preg on that first cycle of Clomid but almost on the same day I found out I was preg, I started m/c. A year went by with no further pregs until my 2nd IUI when again I m/c. A month after the 2 m/c, DH's best friend told us they were preg and although extremely happy for them, I was also very sad because I would have been due the same time as her. I am happy to report that their preg is going along quite swimmingly:-) I have developed what I call baydar (baby radar), I swear I can almost sense when a pregnant woman is within a 10ft radius of me :-) Sorry for blathering on for so long but it feels good to talk about it, kind of cathartic.

Shejayd · 05-15-2008, 11:00 PM

Krysta- Welcome! I hope you find a lot of things to help you at soulcysters! YOu came to the right place. I am sorry that you have had losses, they are so hard to deal with, especially when a friend is pregnant, The same thing happened to me last year, I had a loss at 5 weeks and my girlfriend found out she was 6 weeks pregnant on the same day, our due dates were within days of eachother. Just remember that what doesnt kill you can only make you stronger, and the will to move on will empower you to hope and try again. Many many many women with PCOS get pregnant and carry to term all the time, so it is possible. I have had 10 losses total, and i did not have the heart to give up on something i truly believed was my calling. Every loss i had was prior to 6 wks, and my latest milestone is 9 weeks, so heres praying that it is possible. Good luck here, and i hope you find what you are looking for.

christine2122 · 05-16-2008, 07:15 PM

I didn't receive notification that anyone replied to my message ~ weird!
I just got on here again today as I am feeling completely alone and I know I'm not...It was very hard to read everyones posts and feel like I had any idea what was going on

I actually went to see Dr. Coulblum (??) yesterday. I emailed him directly and I got in right away. He was super nice and told me I had PCOS LOL I was diagnosed in 2004 LOL. He said PCOS and weight gain/loss are not connected which was very frustrating. He suggested I watch what I eat and exercise more, but in a very nice way...anyways, I think I just needed to talk to someone - all my friends are in ON and its too hard to keep them in the loop day to day, so its not fare to call with an emotional breakdown.
Thanks ladies...

Shejday - congrats on the pregnancy!!! How did you lose 100 lbs?????
Jade Love - what does 4 snow babies waiting mean? ARe you preggo with quads???? I can hardly understand most of the posts with all the abreviations etc. lol
Weemes - how did it go today?

weemes · 05-16-2008, 07:44 PM

It's a very very sad day for us

DH had his biopsy today, this was our last resort...

He's recovering fine but they didn't find any sperm. They completely opened his left testitcle and went through all the tissue and didn't find a single one.

The doctor was very nice breaking the news to me, I felt really bad for him having to deliver such tough news.

It was especially hard because I'd watched 6 other couples leave with smiles in their faces.

I have yet to cry... I know I need to but right now I have to stay strong for my poor Dh who just ultimately made a huge gesture of his love and faith in our marriage by allowing someone to slice him in half like that.

Krystabelle · 05-16-2008, 07:46 PM

Thanks, Shejayd! The second m/c almost destroyed me though! I thought I would never try again cause I was just devastated! Fortunatley once I got over the depression, the desire to try again came back :-) Congrats & happy belated birthday!

Shejayd · 05-17-2008, 01:28 PM

Mel- I am so sorry. I don't even know what to say. I am so sorry that you have to go through that. My prayers go out to you and DH.

weemes · 05-17-2008, 01:31 PM

Thanks Sheena...

LadyBugg · 05-17-2008, 05:10 PM

Melanie- There are no words to comfort you right now, but you know I have felt the exact same feelings, so if you want to talk, please e-mail me. My best advice is to try to take care of yourself and be there for dh. Let yourself feel whatever you feel ie: don't hold back becasue you are ashamed or embarrassed or don't feel like you "should" feel this way. You wil get through this together. One day at a time. Your dh is very strong for letting the docs go searching like that.

weemes · 05-18-2008, 02:39 PM

Thanks Keltie- I did send you an email

christine2122 · 05-18-2008, 05:14 PM

Weemes ~ My heart is broken for you! I wish I could say something that makes everything better, but I can't. Your DH is amazing to do this for your and your future family! As wrong as this may sound, at least you may be able to carry a baby, if DH is OK with that. Also, my brother is adopted and we adore him the same as my sister, who isn't. Life is horrible at times, but I personally feel there is always a reason. Sometimes I ask myself what the reason this or that could be because I wanted something so bad that I didn't/couldn't get, and then I realize that my life wouldn't be the way it is if this/that had of happened. Am I babbling? Did that make sense? Trust that you will have a family, one way or another, and it will be perfect and exactly the way it is suppose to be.

After I had my miscarriage I was upset with my fiance that he didn't seem to be as upset as I was, and I questioned if he wanted it like I did. And he said to me he didn't want me to feel worse so he 'hid' his emotions from me. I think you need to allow yourself to grieve this with your DH. Talking about it together, might help both of you. Just a thought.

Good luck to you both!!!!

weemes · 05-19-2008, 05:05 AM

Christine: Thank you for all your kind words. You were not babbling at all. You're right, I really do hope I can carry a baby. I've been pg before about 6 years ago before my DH. I went for an u/s and there was no heartbeat and had to have a d & c. It was terrible but even then I felt like a decision had been made for me that I needed to accept because maybe there was a reason.

What you said about sharing my feelings with my DH was very eye opening. I had never though of it that way. I will be sure to address this with Dh as soon as he's up to it. Thanks for that.... now tonight I can go to sleep thinking about how I am going to communicate this with him rather than just being sad about the biopsy. The results of the biopsy I cannot change and although I'm still grieving a change of focus is just what I need.

Shejayd · 05-20-2008, 04:43 AM

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