Looking for a friend - Page 2

LisaPA · 08-20-2008, 02:24 AM

ArmyStoleHim,

It is hard to find a good doctor I know but don't tolerate one that is being rude to you! I know what you mean about the BCP, I just spoke to my PCP yesterday about Met and BCP and he says that will probably be my treatment. I don't want BCP because I hear that they just mask the symptoms of PCOS and don't actually change anything. Anyway, I will have to wait to see what the Gyne says after my pelvic sonogram (I am still waiting to be diagnosed) and he wants my treatment to be.

I will be sure to stay away from Kanna because that sounds terrible! The anti depressants I can understand your reaction to them, I keep reading and hearing that everybody reacts differently to them and some just don't work for some people. I have been lucky in that the two that I am on so far are working for me. But I do know what you mean when you say your "baby" is all the anti depressant that you need, I feel the same way. My DBF makes me feel like the world is okay whenever I feel down. He is WAAAY better than a pill, lol.

LisaPA · 08-20-2008, 02:29 AM

Carrie, this is really a horrible thing you are going through :-( This guy sounds like someone who needs to get a life and stop preying on people like you. Who won't talk to you anymore? The people on the board?

08-20-2008, 11:03 AM

so called friends from the board that live in the same town as me. The board mainly consists of group of people from Little Rock (where i'm originally from) and another group from Fayetteville (where I live now). Most of the LR people haven't talked to me since I left 2 years ago. And now i'm finding out more and more of the people in Fayetteville wish i'd never moved here. They hate that i'm with Matt and don't work. They feel i'm using him. They also can't get over the fact that I used to do drugs (part of the reason I moved was to get clean) even though they did too. I was just more extreme in what I did and how I did it.
I can't get a job because i'm afraid to leave my own house. I'm haunted by my past. I feel stared at and hated every where I go. My therapist tells me "you're just not that big of a deal" but that just makes me feel more ****ty. I know she doesn't mean it in a bad way, but that's how I always take things.
Matt is the only person I feel remotey safe around, and he can't be with me 24-7 so I spend his work hours pacing and crying or online. And after this last incedent I don't even feel safe online anymore.

adea8 · 08-20-2008, 04:04 PM

LISA: holla at me anytime cyster! you can get through this storm and get pcos under control so it doesnt control u

Armystolehim04 · 08-20-2008, 05:55 PM

Lisa,
They keep telling me to come in for an Apt,and i just came in monday! TWICE!
I called to ask for something to be called into the pharmacy,i worked yesterday and i have a really hard time sitting because it makes my back hurt really bad to the point were i cry.As much as i'd like to lay down at home and not go to work, i have bills to pay.I called about 4 hrs ago and no one has called me back.I made mom call because if i did i was going to rip them a new ***hole if they told me to come in

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On BCP's i felt okay,i was on them for 3 years which is not good.When i came off of it i started getting worse PCOS symptoms : hair loss,pimples,fatigue,mood swings. Its different for everyone though.They are making me go back on them to see if my cyst will shrink which is dumb because somehow i managed to get one while on them (ive only been off for 2 months).I hope your sonogram goes well make sure to ask a lot of questions!

LisaPA · 08-21-2008, 01:26 AM

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Originally Posted by adea8

LISA: holla at me anytime cyster! you can get through this storm and get pcos under control so it doesnt control u

Thanks, I had a very low day today and really needed some encouragement. Your post made me smile.

I think I will start repeating that to myself, "I will get this under control so it doesn't control me!!!" Thanks again for the support.

LisaPA · 08-21-2008, 01:40 AM

Carrie: I understand this is hard and any time you want to discuss I will be here. I think though these people are not worth your worrying. Maybe you should repeat my new motto (courtesy of Adea8) "I will get this under control so that it doesn't control me". I think it it a great way to think and live your life. I have let depression and PCOS run my life for a long time and I think it's time I take back control from them. You can do the same sweetie. Don't let your phobias, depression and those idiots in LR and Fayetteville run your life.

ArmyStoleHim: The people at your doctor's office seem to be just a little slow, lol. Why would you need to come in for an appt. when you were just there???? And then not getting back to you is terrible as well. You are better than me because I would have ripped them a new one. I hope you finally got your prescription and your back is feeling better. I have lower back pain and when I sit for too long I get pain as well, so I know that's not fun especially at work.

Hmmm...I did not know that when you stop taking BCP you can get those type of side effects. Like you said everybody is different though and maybe I wouldn't get them but it definitely makes me think twice about starting them. I have to agree that it is dumb of the doctor to put you back on something that allowed a cyst to grow in the first place. Sometimes doctors do silly things that make no sense.

Thanks for the well wishes on my sonogram, it's not until 9/3 and I will definitely take your advice and ask LOTS of questions! I used to be shy about asking doctors questions but since doing my research on this forum and other places I feel confident and empowered to go in there and ask WHATEVER I want!

Wow I had a lot to say. I guess I better call it a night. Have a great day tomorrow!!!!

Armystolehim04 · 08-21-2008, 04:34 PM

Both of you can call me Glory

Carrie:
He's just miserable and he wants everyone to feel like him,its dumb of them to not talk to you.I think your a great person!Most people don't understand what its like when you've been abused.You feel worthless,misunderstood...If they don't understand that they are missing out on a great friend!We all cope in different ways.Just because you did drugs does not mean that you are that person today!We all make mistakes we are human!

LisaPA,

They ended up giving me some Loratab after much calling.Its weird i kept talkin to a different dr every time.Finally some one looked at my chart and prescribed it right away.I was almost in tears of the thought of going to work in pain again.But it helps a lot they also put me on Nordac (BCP) to stop me from bleeding.As much as that helps its a temporary fix.My Appointment for my follow up is 9/3 as well!Lets pray for some good news!!

08-21-2008, 04:56 PM

*hugs all around*

really bad day. couldn't sleep, my tummy is killing me. I was supposed to have a job interview today but I panicked and cancelled, said I was sick (which is sorta true). Called my therapist but I can't get in to see her till mid Sept. I don't even want to see her, but I don't really have another option.
i'm trying to see the good stuff. I may not have a lot that I want, but I do have Matt and he loves me despite all the stupid things i've done and still do. I may not have a ring on my finger, but he bought us a house. Even though i've not worked in a year he put my name next to his on everything and we signed the papers for the house together. He does everything for me. I wish I could be better for him.

LisaPA · 08-23-2008, 01:37 AM

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Originally Posted by tehghettopirate

*hugs all around*

really bad day. couldn't sleep, my tummy is killing me. I was supposed to have a job interview today but I panicked and cancelled, said I was sick (which is sorta true). Called my therapist but I can't get in to see her till mid Sept. I don't even want to see her, but I don't really have another option.
i'm trying to see the good stuff. I may not have a lot that I want, but I do have Matt and he loves me despite all the stupid things i've done and still do. I may not have a ring on my finger, but he bought us a house. Even though i've not worked in a year he put my name next to his on everything and we signed the papers for the house together. He does everything for me. I wish I could be better for him.

Matt seems to be a great guy and seems very similar to my DBF. Carrie we are almost in the exact same situation! I read this post and cried because I feel the same about my man and I too "wish I could be better for him". I am working on it though and he knows that one day I'll be better and we will be okay. I think your Matt knows that you are trying to be better and it's not something you can easily control.

Have you had treatment for your panic attacks and anxiety ? I get them sometimes and I have anxiety as well, I try breathing exercises which help some what.

LisaPA · 08-23-2008, 01:42 AM

Glory, So glad you were able to get a prescription and didn't have to go through anymore pain. I think it's a sign that our appts are on the same day 9/3, ,maybe it's a good sign and we will get some good news. I think we both are due some good news, don't ya think? I'm hoping to be officially diagnosed and start on Met and maybe something for the excess hair. That would be my good news.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!!!!

(I like that smiley for some reason, lol)

08-23-2008, 02:11 AM

Lisa:
He is the greatest man i've ever known and my very best friend. I've never loved someone as much as I love him. And he really tries to be there and support me in every way.
Oh, and I should mention i'm already on lithium 300mg BID and klonopin 1mg PRN for panic attacks. I was on xanax but i've had black outs on it so I won't take it anymore. I just go to a family practice dr cause it's the best we can afford right now. I don't really like the place, but what do ya do?
I did actually make it to an interview today. I really want the job too. So please cross your fingers or pray or dance to little green men, whatever your thing, that I get it. I'm gona be on pins and needles all weekend.

LisaPA · 08-28-2008, 02:59 AM

Sorry guys I have had a few very bad mental days and just couldn't post. I am finally feeling some what better and wanted to stop by.

Carrie: I have had my fingers crossed for you and I will say a little prayer that you get the job!!! GOOD LUCK (I hope you already heard from them) Sending good vibes your way girl

Glory: I hope you are doing well and you are not in any pain.

08-28-2008, 10:22 AM

Lisa:
Afraid I did hear from them and i'm "over-qualified" for the job, so no luck there. I'm upset, but I know that I didn't do anything wrong to not get the job. Still hurts tho. I'm going to the dr. later today to get these stomach issues checked out. I'm so tired of being sick day after day.
*lots of hugs* Hope you keep doing better. I missed you.

LindyLouWho · 08-28-2008, 09:03 PM

Hello everyone! I haven't been officially diagnosed with depression, but I definitely have been going through a depressed time in my life. I would like some friends to talk to about PCOS and how it SUCKS, because none of my friends have it! All of them pop out babies like it's nothing, and some people I know have been pretty insensitive about my fertility issues.

ArmystoleHim, I live in GA too!

Tehghettopirate, I hope you can get those stomach issues fixed. I hate stomach issues!

~Lindy~