Losing Hope

stephie25 · 06-26-2008, 06:55 AM

I haven't posted in a while but I really need some encouragement from people who know what I am going through. It seems as if I am never going be able to conceive on my own. It doesn't help that my hubby has a job that requires him to travel extensively. I am going to be 33 in August. I feel like there is no hope at all. Everywhere I go I see pregnant women and women with children. I realize that it's in my head. I have become more and more sad. No one knows what I go through on a day to day basis. It take so much not to cry. Most of my friends and acquaintances take their children for granted. I hear so many stories of children who are abused. It breaks my heart. I have been married going on 8 years. I did get pregnant through and IVF cycle but ultimately miscarried. I guess you could say I really haven't dealt with it well. I should have gone to some counseling but never did. I can say I harbor some bitterness. I have prayed and prayed and no answer time and again.

gemoline · 06-26-2008, 08:16 AM

Hi

Just though i would drop you a message of encouragement and tell you not to lose hope like you i have been trying for two years with no luck i have not been through half of what you have been through and im terrible sorry for your loses.
I know how you feel about seeing people with there children i feel the same all my friend have children and it can feel so frustrating at times.
But just try yo stay positive and think this is going to happen for you im sure you will be a wonderful mother !! Good Luck xx

eeyore1978 · 06-28-2008, 10:25 PM

I just wanted to drop in to say that I am very sorry to hear about your loss. I, myself, suffered from one tubal pregnancy and three miscarriages, so I can honestly say, I know what you are going through. It is never too late to go and get counseling, if you think it would be beneficial to you. Don't lose hope. Continue to pray and I know that God will bring you the child that was meant for you and your husband, whether biological or through other means. He has a much grander plan than we could ever dream of. Take care of yourself.

SandV · 06-28-2008, 10:38 PM

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Originally Posted by stephie25

I haven't posted in a while but I really need some encouragement from people who know what I am going through. It seems as if I am never going be able to conceive on my own. It doesn't help that my hubby has a job that requires him to travel extensively. I am going to be 33 in August. I feel like there is no hope at all. Everywhere I go I see pregnant women and women with children. I realize that it's in my head. I have become more and more sad. No one knows what I go through on a day to day basis. It take so much not to cry. Most of my friends and acquaintances take their children for granted. I hear so many stories of children who are abused. It breaks my heart. I have been married going on 8 years. I did get pregnant through and IVF cycle but ultimately miscarried. I guess you could say I really haven't dealt with it well. I should have gone to some counseling but never did. I can say I harbor some bitterness. I have prayed and prayed and no answer time and again.

I would like to inspire you. I am 37 years old. I had given up on ever having a child of my own. For the first time since being dx with PCOS (13 years), I actually got pregnant. I did not carry to term (ectopic). I did it NATURALLY without drugs, IVF, IUI...
Last year I went to my old gyn for a routine physical. She ran blood tests and told me to take Met for IR. I took it for 2 months - but stopped taking it because of the s/e during AF. I decided I would start eating right and healthy again. I was shocked when I had to go for the emergency surgery to learn I was 8 weeks.
Because of this I am a firm believer that anyone can get pregnant. I know even though I have one tube, I will give birth to an amazing child. I also have had a hard time healing from the loss. I cannot always discuss it without crying. Nor can I stop blaming myself. However, I always keep in the back of my mind that it happened once so it WILL happen again.