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Old 10-31-2005, 09:49 PM   #1 (permalink)
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My father died unexpectedly this month. So now I have lost 2 babies and my father in the last 6 months. I know we all have nothing but sad stories here, but I thought I was feeling fine about the last m/c and was ready to TTC again. But now I feel like I'm back at square one. I can't believe even if I do have a baby some day, my Dad won't be here to see it.

My grandmother actually said, "Well maybe there was just no room for one more. We had to lose one (my dad) to get one (a baby)." I was so shocked I couldn't speak. I wish I would have said that there is no way I ever would had traded my father for a baby. I know my grandmothrer meant this to be somehow comforting, but it was an awful thing to say.

I just wish things could go back to the way they were before all this happened.
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Old 10-31-2005, 10:35 PM   #2 (permalink)
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Mibell,

I just wanted to let you know you are in my prayers! I lost my father in 2000 and I know how difficult the sudden death of a parent is. Please know that things will get better. They will never be the same, but life will little by little get better. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers!

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Old 10-31-2005, 10:42 PM   #3 (permalink)
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I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your father and your babies. What a difficult time you are going through.

I'm sorry that your grandmother made that remark. I think people sometimes say the worst things when they are trying to be supportive. Of course you would have liked your father to meet your child(ren) some day, and it's ok to grieve the loss of that.

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I am so sorry for your loss!! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
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Old 10-31-2005, 11:04 PM   #5 (permalink)
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Thank you everyone for your support--it's so nice to have a place to fall apart a little. I'm just so tired of greiving. And now those 2 m/c feel like fresh losses to me. I'm not even sure I want to TTC now (and a month ago I was so excited to try again!). I'm just so tired.
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I am so sorry for your losses! I lost my father suddenly last year, and still cry whenever I think about it. You are so broken right now. Just take time and heal and you can ttc when you are ready. You have a lot on your plate right now, so just take it easy. We are always here for you to get it all out. Big hugs for you and your family.
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I'm just sending lots of warm thoughts and prayers to you...im so sorry for your pain right now. I lost my dad too...i know its hard. [[[hugs]]]
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I'm so very sorry for the loss of your dad.

Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

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I am very sorry for the loss of your dad, and of your babies.
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I'm very sorry about your dad. With every death or funeral, it dredges up previous losses and feelings, so this is completely normal. It is a sad time, and I hope that we can be an ear for you when you need one. (((hugs)))
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I'm so sorry to hear about your father's death.

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I just wanted to say that I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I suddenly lost my father 7 years ago, it was so unexpected, I talked to him the night before and the next night he was gone. My husband and I had been trying and trying to get pregnant for 4 years. I had a family member say something similar to me and it hurt so bad. My dad died in Jan and I found out in April that I was pregnant with our first child....It was such a bittersweet moment, I missed him even more at that moment. It has been 7 years now and every time I see my son I think of my dad....There is not a day that goes by that doesn't feel like I just lost him.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and if ever need a shoulder or ear please email me anytime.... missjewell@aol.com
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Old 11-04-2005, 01:59 AM   #14 (permalink)
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I'm sorry for your loss, and your grandmother's comment. I lost my Dad in 2001. We were expecting it (lung cancer), but for six months I kept picking up the phone to call him. I don't think you ever COULD prepare yourself for such a loss. Then I lost my grandma in 2003, and Rivi in 2004.

My therapist told me that each loss reopens the unresolved grief from prior losses. So I'd say you're perfectly normal to have all of those feelings jumbled right now.

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Old 11-09-2005, 03:04 AM   #15 (permalink)
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Thank you everybody for your very sweet support. Losing my father really did open old wounds. Just when you think you're completely healed, the pain can knock you over again.

I wish I could hug all of you.

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