what is wrong with me. I feel so yucky, like I could just cry all day. My emoitions are just right here, and I hate this. I have an appt with my therapist later to see if I can talk to her about it, but ya know I really don't know what to say, I feel like I'll just be repeating myself to her, even though I think she understands, it's like I need to put on a show to go in and talk to her, not telling her what I really feel, b/c yes, she will judge me. My friedn a while back said, that's like "cleaning house before the maid comes" Today I just don't care about anything, and that's not good. I get in these moods...this just feels really ****ty, AF is due anytime, and last night I had a blast playing tennis.
My mind says, ok what's going on, but I feel like I'm dissing the reason or just don't know, my gut is in knots. Then I go to, it's just me, change your attitude.
I had 3 egg whites, hummus, and a tortilla today, that's not the cause.
I don't like this
Just wanted to say I'm so sorry you're going through this. I hope your therapist can help... although, do you really think she judges you? Maybe she's not the best therapist for you. You deserve to be seen by someone who you really feel can help.
I agree if your therapist judges you maybe you should find someone else. They aren't there to judge you, they are there to help you. If you aren't getting the help you need then please look for someone else to talk to.
thanks cysters, I knew I needed to just bawl. The therapy appt. went well, my therapist isn't the one who's making me feel like she is judging me, it's me making myself feel that way. She truly is a blessing and I've said that before, hope she doesn't read the board-I tell her about it lol
Anyway, I'm the one who feels this way at times about her judgng me, and I said to her yesterday, "thank you for letting me come in to talk, I know that's what you're here for", she said, "exactly".
Therapy is tough, and I got a lot of tears out yesterday which is a good thing Also got some Premysin PMS tabs too, let the relief begin lol
lump in my throat 
I hope your therapist can help... although, do you really think she judges you? Maybe she's not the best therapist for you. You deserve to be seen by someone who you really feel can help.
Also got some Premysin PMS tabs too, let the relief begin lol
