..i just passed the sac-was the size of a huge lemon......held in in my hands for a long time....then finally let it go.....the physical pain, Alhamdulillah, is gone....dont think the emotional one ever will...all the 'healing' thru these last few weeks seems to have been washed away by tears all over again.....and i feel like im back to square one....
thank u for all ur support through this trying time.....it helped me a lot, Jazak Allah.
Meggy- I am so sorry for what your going through...My prayers are with you and your family. Stay strong we are all will you.
Meggy- I'm so sorry for what you're going through. Are you able to talk to your doctor about a support group? If there is anything at all you need from us, please let us know. My duaa is with you always.
Hi everyone. Well the doctors in Germany won't be able to tell us anything until next week, so I'm just waiting for that. However, I went to the doctor yesterday because I did something horrible to my back. She's given me two medications (on top of my metformin) and a back brace, and I have to have x-rays for my back.
Meggy: I am soo sorry to read about what happen. I no we cant be there for you physically but if all you need is to talk then we are all here for you. I no theres nothing that we can probably say to make you feel better right now but it is said in the hadith that :
"By the One in Whose hand is my soul, truly the miscarried child will certainly drag its mother with its umbilical cord to Paradise, provided one expects recompense [for SABR]."
I pray to Almighty Allah that HE gives you the strength to get through this difficult time and give you lots of sabr..AMEEN
Ohhhhh I'm so excited. The doctors in Germany called and said Sarah will be a good candiate for the stem cell treatment. And they can get her in in as little as 4-5 weeks!! We're not sure yet when we are going, Dh and I are going to sit down and figure it out (especially since he has a cousin with a little girl who also has issues and wants to go, we might time it so we go together). But I've finally updated her blog (http://helping-sarah.blogspot.com) and I'll let you guys know what's going and try to pop in as much as I can each week! Thanks all for your duaa
SARAHSMOM:mashallah thats great news....
May everything work out well and you are blessed with with all His blessings...ameen...
Loads of love for the lil one and prayers too...
and I hope you feel better too soon enough...*hugs*
Crunfil: Whenever I went to a gynae for my irregular periods in my teenage years, they told me my periods are wacky because I take too much stress. Other than a few inconsequnetial crushes and GPAs, I had NO stress... for years I went to doctors! No one ever did an ultrasound or a blood test, they just listened to the problem and handed me birth control pills and a lecture on "don't worry about your studies". Sheesh. So are you overweight now? I mean did you gain a lot of weight since your periods became irregular?
ZonBonBon: You can't blame me for being curious about your nickname Welcome to the board. You are certainly not the only one with PCOS, in fact, quite far from that. Ever since I've been diagnosed, I've found so many other women going through this... I mean, sometimes I'm at the mall and just looking at a woman, I know she has PCOS. DH hates that... hehe! How are your doctors trying to diagnose you? Have you had an ultrasound yet? Bloodwork?
Sarahsmom: I read your message earlier and prayed at night for Sarah's betterment. I'm really hopeful for her inshAllah - I've just gotten so attached to the "idea" of her, you know. Sounds like a fun triplet-wedding event you had there. I think this is it for me at times... at other times, there's a leap of faith. What did you do to your back woman? Hope you're doing much better now... Ameen.
wantababy786: Sister, I'm sorry if I am repeating myself but what dosage are you on? I don't think 8mm for CD 10 is bad... it's not the best but I wouldn't say this cycle is a bust just yet.
Okay I went back and read your recent message. I'm pretty sure you'll respond to 100mg now. While you did ovulate on 50, I don't see why your doctor wouldn't increase the dose if you didn't get conceive on the 50.
Faithandhope: Not only did clomid not do anything for me, it made me a raving lunatic. Like you, I just couldn't stop crying while I was on it... and boy, that was not a fun ride. Femara, I had read about that on this board and that it is sometimes better for thin cysters than clomid but my doctor in Pakistan wasn't comfortable with it. Here, in the US, a soulcyster directed me to a doctor who did Femara... and I went to her and Alhamdulillah, Allah SWT put shifa in it for me. MashAllah you're very lucky to have a supportive, understanding husband. Isn't that half of the problem solved? And cool, your in-laws keep hands off you about this. I got so tired of the "good news" phrase that now that I have it, Alhamdulillah, I just want to keep it to myself. It's mine. No one else's.
Mamawantmore: So will you be my preggo-partner? I'm almost where you are. I'm also very sleepy most of the day and dead-tired. But I'm happy for these symptoms Alhamdulillah. Sometimes I think I'm faking them, I feel so unreal. Can I ask you a painful question, you don't have to answer. I can see you've suffered many m/c. May Allah SWT reward you for it... but I wanted to know, can you "feel" you're having a m/c before you even start bleeding? Or is it like a sudden thing? I'm just so, so scared of having one... you have no idea. I keep praying to Allah SWT that this is His miracle and only He can safely deliver this miracle into my arms...
Angel: Salam sister and welcome to the thread. I admire your faith, MashAllah. I can also see you have a good husband and like I was saying to another sister, that's half of our problem solved... Alhamdulillah.
Sara_kh: I love the way you and Noor are connected and working together on losing weight and being healthy. InshAllah you'll also loose tons of weight (or whatever you need to lose) and keep it that way. Hope your exams are going well inshAllah.
As for me, my second beta came above 1400 (can't remember the exact number) so Alhamdulillah, it seems like I am pregnant. A girl at the masjid asked me why I looked so exhausted and then said it herself "You're pregnant". I told her she can't tell anyone yet but we know how that goes... I'm just so scared of something going wrong now. DH told his mom that my mom cried when she heard about the positive test... uggggghhhh!!! And DH's mom was like... huh??? You guys were using protection all this time, weren't you? And being himself, he didn't lie to her. I was just so mad at him! I tried to play it so cool in front of my in-laws and I really feel Allah SWT saved me from so many suspicions by making it happen now... and then DH becomes a baby and tells him mom we weren't using protection. Honestly, why should she even have a right to ask that.
InshAllah I'm trying not to hold a grudge against anyone. Sure people soiled my life while I was in Pakistan with horrible questions and "jokes"... but I don't want to feel I'm having this baby for people. He/She is a gift from Allah SWT for ME!
I know the next thing will be the concern of ... "is the baby fair"... my complexion is not the moonlight skin color that exists on DH's side and they are SOOOO crazy about that. The first question that's asked when a child is born is not. "is he normal? healthy? all fingers, toes"... it's "Is he fair?" But I'm telling myself I will not fall into this again... I will word hard not to be ungrateful to Allah SWT for this miracle!
Even the nurse at my doctor's office said we're all very surprised and happy how it all worked out for you. They still have no idea HOW I ever ovulated. Imagine... if this isn't a miracle, what is.
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I just read your update! ALHAMDULILLAH! I hope everything goes VERRRRRRRRRRY smoothly and Sarah feels MUCH better inshAllah. And it's so nice of you guys to worry about your DH's cousin's daugther too... inshAllah pray for each other, Allah SWT will appoint an angel with both of you who'll say ameen to the prayer you make for them and then will say - the same for you. And jazakAllah! Finally! an update on Sarah's blog. Tardy mama, you.
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Nomadic- Hamdillah Hamdillah that this turned out to be an actual pregnancy (not a false positive). Inshallah making it to the 12th week will get you out of the red. Don't worry about being tired. I spent all of my pregnancy with Sarah sleeping. Don't STRESS about anything especially now. Eat whatever you want (no diets or anything like that) and sleep when ever you want. Have your DH get you a maid that comes in once a week and does all the major stuff so you aren't doing anything. Mabrook to you and DH. Listen, people are always going to keep talking. First its "Why aren't you pregnant" then its "Oh my child could speak 10 languages before he turned 6 months" and also the whole fair thing. Sorry for the harsh language but who gives a crap? As long as the baby is healthy and happy it doesn't matter if its a girl or a boy (another thing that Arabs freak out about, not sure if you guys have that same problem) if they are light or dark or purple or green. BTW, your child is going to be the most beautiful baby in the world. Trust me. Even after you just give birth and they are all gross from any blood and all wrinkled and red from going through labor, the baby will be the prettiest thing to you. Inshallah Allah will grant you a pious child as well as a healthy and relaxing pregnancy.
Oh and BTW- your MIL shouldn't ask about protection or not. That's between a husband and wife. That's like asking what positions do you do it in? Its haram. I understand your husband might be embarassed but she shouldn't be asking that question. But sometimes its the shock of your parents asking you you don't know what else to say. Don't blame your hubby for it. Oh yeah, and when you're pregnant people are more annoying than before. I'm not sure why but that's how I felt. So if you didn't get along with your in-laws before, try not to talk to them for the next 9 months...lol!
Chips- Thanks so much. I was actually given some kind of steriod. So my back doesn't hurt anymore. I wish I went earlier rather than suffer all those weeks. Oh well. Did you have problems getting logged in earlier? I spent all day trying to get on and I'd get an error message. I wonder if it was just me..??
Been away while, but I wanted to pop in and say salaams to you all !
InshaAllah everyone is doing well.
Congratulations to the sisters who are PG! MashAllah ! May Allah make your pregnancies healthy and give you pious, healthy, beautiful offspring !
To the sister - Meggy - I'm so sorry for your loss. Words cannot express what you've gone through and I wish for you that Allah showers his mercy, love, and blessings on you. You are in my dua'as.
SARAHSMOM:yeah I was not able to log on the entire day today...oh well I tried it once in the morning ,then once in the afternoon and now again when I got lucky...hehe...I guess the site was having problems maybe....
NOMADIC:whenever I used to go to the doctor for my wacky periods in my teenages I was told the same thing...you are stressed...!!!!!!!!....and I still don't know what can be stressful about that golden days of our lives...I mean student life is fun..!!...life where you have a marriage,job,family affairs ,household and on top of that infertility...this is STRESS...!!
Anyway,we all know that its no one business asking about what protection a couple uses...but people still so...my MIL asked my DH about it when she was visiting us a few years ago...(I don't know what he told her though)...and she gave me all the information about all other of my BIL's and SIL's mode of protection...*shudders*
While she was here she once spotted me sleeping on the carpet while the DH on the bed...(I think I had a neck sprain or backache so I lay down there)...but she assumed that it was always the case and we never DTD,hence we had no kids...!...she even had the nerve to relay this information to the BIL when she got back to Pakistan and believe it or not she has asked the DH direct questions like "do you guys sleep together??.."...yukh....yukh...yukh...!!!!!
We were the target of a load of annoying questions ....but the DH had to put his foot down once...I never liked his tone then but seriously that put an end to all the questions...or atleast they dont bother to inquire from me why we don't have kids...
sorry for the ramblings and venting....
I am truly happy for you and all other sisters who are expecting....may Allah swt make it a smooth journey with a wonderful outcome for all...ameen....
remember me in your duas too....
I am waiting to get my period on 04/04....which I think wont happen by itself...
I had the Follistim and HCG delivered and once the cycle starts I will start with them followed by an IUI...Inshallah...and I hope we get lucky...Allah knows best...
oh and I am also on 1500 mgs/day Metformin....
Meggy: i am really sorry to hear what you are going through i pray Allah swt blesses you with sabr. May Allah make it easy for you ameen.
Sarahs Mom: Masha Allah very good news about lil one Insha Allah May Allah make the rest of the journey easy for you. Ameen
Nomadic: Masha Allah i am very happy your result is confirmed. Just take it easy relax and enjoy the pregnancy, Insha Allah we will make lots of dua for you that this preganancy is made easy for you and you have a healthy pious baby. Before i got married i was really skinny so when my period strted going funny i started going curvy. according to the docs i am not overweight they say i am right for my height. I asked my DH and he said dont loose anything please lol.i think i like my weight right now i am not too skinny like i used to be.
So did your mil think you were not trying coz i have given my in laws the same impression that i am not trying. Since i have got married i have always been quite private with regards to this with my in laws i just didnt think they need to know. Yet i am so open with my mum about it she has been with me through every struggle. I havent told anyone on my husbands side about pcos, but recently i told my mil and alhamdulillah she was supportive,,but she just thinks its health related thing she doesnt know i am trying i feel that would put additional pressure on me.
The only thing new with me i came on my AF after 2.5 months which is a relief because i was feeling so bloated. I am not taking any medication right now but i am actually looking forward to being given something by the gyn i think it is anxiety more than anything.
Just wanted to ask-clomid sounds quite frightening does it really affect you so much emotionally?
CRUNFIL :...I have done a few cycles of clomid and I tolerated it well...
I AH experienced no symptoms and signs ,either physical or emotional,while taking teh drug...
All people respond differently,but still I think its nothing to be afraid of...All the best....!!
Welcome to the board. You are certainly not the only one with PCOS, in fact, quite far from that. Ever since I've been diagnosed, I've found so many other women going through this... I mean, sometimes I'm at the mall and just looking at a woman, I know she has PCOS. DH hates that... hehe! How are your doctors trying to diagnose you? Have you had an ultrasound yet? Bloodwork?
