I feel like crying! warning! rant ahead!
my cervix is posterior, far, high, back, crooked, bent, weird,..whatever you want to say aggggggggggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
my OB had said this to me..and said that it would be a good idea to go to him first since he knows the location of my cervix..and he would put a catheter in and tape it to my leg and then I can go to the HSG..
but the HSG didn't have openings that coincided with my GYNs availability..and then it was going into CD14 and so on.. so no good..
so I went today for the HSG..and was tortured and in the end NOTHING!..because my cervix SUCKS!!!
so now..I am waiting for my GYN to call me back and have him either do what he said or have hime meet me at the HSG place and have him insert it there..
the staff is expediting me,squeezing me in whenever I want.. and doing anything I need since they feel bad for me.
I am tired of this!!..I am tired of TTC..maybe all of this is a sign to just give up!\
Allahu Alam!
Maybe I am a One-Hit-Wonder..but how WONDERful she is!..
Elhamdulillah for everything..!
__________________ -Rania MARRIED SINCE 07/2001 TTC since 02/2004 - lost a baby 04/2004
Nourania, as long as your uterus is fine (which will be confirmed with the HSG inshaAllah), don't worry about your cervix, I know it's so annoying, frustrating... etc. You did it once and can do it again inshaAllah. It's all up to God! Besides, your "one-hit-wonder" is so amazingly beautiful. She will be a big sister inshaAllah. Every day passing you're coming closer to that. Try to think of it like this, it always makes me feel better even though my case is a lot less hopeful than yours. Oh, have you had your DH tested?
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Nourina: Insha Allah it will all be ok you will be able to have a beautiful baby again, keep faith in Allah sis.
Wantababy: How was your appointment??
Rusalka, bundle, chips and everyone else thankyou for asking;
Alhamdulillah my appointment was ok, i have a repeat scan next week and they will do i biopsy to rule out any danger, the doctor was very good. He thinks it is related to blood vessels and is optimistic it is not dangerous. They have to figure a way to operate and remove as it seems a bit tricky, but i have faith Allah will make it easy for me Insha Allah.
Jzk for all your duas
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nourania- i ams orry abt your cervix but like rusalka said all that matters is your uterus, plz keep your faith. I know how frustrating it can be. Inshallah you will be blessed again soon.
Crunfil- Alhamdulilah. Inshallah we'll continue to make dua all goes well.
As for me, I had the appointment with the high-risk OB and he said it's not a hematoma. He said hematomas don't have the normal structure a sac does they have weird edges and stuff and i haven't had any bleeding. He initially thought it was a vanishing twin but when he looked at it from different angles it seems like that sac is part of the original sac of the first baby, meaning they arent separate sacs but i have a bump on my uterus wall causing it to appear that way.
He said he's not worried at all and that the fetus looks great. He doesnt think I need another ultrasound until18-20 weeks. I feel better but am still worried inshallah all will be well.
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I know I've been MIA on the forum, there has been too much action going on in my life otherwise.
My PICC line got a severe infection, went straight to my blood, and there was a high possibility it had reached my uterus and with that came the fear of losing the pregnancy. Allah SWT knows how we lived those days at the hospital. Then, after several pricks by different nurses, expert CCU staff, expert Peds staff, you name it, they couldn't get an IV running to get me antibiotics. Finally, they had to call in a surgeon to put in a central line near my collar bone... it was extremely painful and because it was stitched (a little too tight) I sat and wept in the hospital bed day and night. Because the PICC line was out, I wasn't getting any nutrition... only IV fluids and meds.
Now, all the tubes are out and I'm home ALHAMDULILLAH. The antibiotics are still fighting the infection but Alhamdulillah my little one seems to be doing fine. I felt her move for the first time when I was getting the central line. Because I was in pain and stress, something got into her and I felt her kick and kick and kick and that made me cry all the more.
To top it all, my aunt's here... mom's sister. She's nice in the sense that she took care of the house while we were at the hospital, but she's extremely imposing. Ever since I've come back, she has re-arranged my home completely... and unnecessarily and keeps drilling into my head how low-class everything here was until SHE arrived and gave life to things. She even changed the bathroom mats! I mean, they were brand new, we had JUST gotten them before I got sick... but she said it was all so boring so she got new ones... I know it doesn't sound like a big deal but hello, I love my place and I had been in bed for 5-6 months! I dont want someone, anyone, telling me anything bad about this place. Plus, we set this place up with so much thought and love - DH and I, it doesn't help when she tells DH (who had been managing a job, a sick wife, a house all the time) that she spent an hour cleaning up the laundry... and says that with such expressions and UGGGGGHHH...
Best part of life is I can eat a little... last I thew up was at the hospital and while I have diarreha every time I eat ... I'm still managing Alhamdulillah. My doctor says as long as I'm gaining weight and not losing, no more PICC line for me. But MaazAllah, if I lose weight, it's back to the TPN and PICC line.
And even better... MAMA IS COMING TONIGHT inshAllah!!!
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I'm sorry this was such a selfish post, I'll get back to all of you soon inshAllah.
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Nomadic, I am so sorry you've been through all that. Allah knows best, but I am sure you've been stripped off of all your sins. Your baby will be so worth all this inshaAllah. Being an injection-phobic person all I can say is I am proud of you! I wish there were things I could do to ease your pain except for praying. You're one strong amazing sister. I can see why our prophet (pbuh) said "paradise lays at the feet of mothers".
Your aunty sounds like a nice person with all the helping, but how on earth do people think they can interfere with how others chose to decorate their homes. I can totally understand how annoying it must be for you. I get so annoyed when my MIL does that. She is such a nice person but she likes interfering, for instance, when we got married and moved into our brand new home, she insisted that I keep the tag-stickers of my fridge and not remove them. There were other things that she thought was "the right thing to do" whereas those were totally weird and unnecessary. Ghrrrrrrrrr! Anywayz, YAAAYYY for your mom's arrival! InshaAllah she will be the best support in your situation.
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TTC#1 with severe male factor infertility
Currently on Metformin 2000 mg/day
Asalaamu Malikum sisters. Mashallah this group seems to be very connected with each other. I have read through many of the posts and mashallah I can feel the sisterhood on this board. Inshallah I would like to join this sisterhood as it is nice to have a support group of fellow Muslimahs. My DH and I have been TTC for a little over a year, but more consistently over the last few months. His job changed so alhamudallah he is home so inshallah we can have a success soon.
Inshallah I look forward to meeting each of you and getting to know your lives and inshallah seeing a success with each of us.
Nomadic- Omg, you have been through soo much. I make dua that Allah (swt) relieves you of any issues. Inshallah the rest if your pregnancy will go well. So happy you are home and your mom is here!
How is everyone else?!
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Kelly- Welcome!
Nomadic- oh my gosh sis! you have been through alot..inshallah you will be rewarded!
nurania- ttc is so frusterating..i just keep praying its easier the second time around but Allah tests us continuously..i feel so guilty for feeling frusterating because i have been blessed with a baby alhmd..i feel i cant complain..but its not wrong to want a family! Dua is the key i think...inshallah we will all be blessed!
not much goin on with me..same old..ttc..on an injection cycle..its CD7 so i got a ways to go..inshallah the scan on friday will show some good eggs..but something inside just tells me the meds are not working! normally i can feel my ovaries twinging but nothing so far..i just pray this cycle is successful!
take care sisters..
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dx with pcos 2003 thin cyster no IR no mf 3 failed clomid and 9 inj cycles ivf- BFP may 17th! ITS A BOY! 1-19-08 ttc#2- cycle 1- BUST 2-BFN 3-BUST 4-BFN IVF...in progress
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Hey Everyone! I'm sorry I'm always gone. I wanted to tell you guys that I'm having a GIRL!! The tech said the baby's legs were crossed but she was still able to tell that It's a girl. I hope it's true cause I'm still not 100% convinced. I'm going for another ultrasound in 2 weeks.
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NOTHING!..because my cervix SUCKS!!!
but how WONDERful she is!
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Having a girl is my dream inshaAllah, Allah knows best ofcourse, just my wish. Did you pick a name yet?
