my baby was due Oct. 27

powerpuff · 10-04-2003, 02:44 AM

I lost my baby at 19 weeks back in June. I thought I've been strong enough and coping well until now. As my due date--10/27--is approaching, I feel like my healing wound is tearing again. I can't bear seeing all those Halloween stuffs everywhere, as they remind me of what the nurse said during my first ultrasound--"Oh it's a Halloween baby!" It is sad I can only talk to you guys about this because you know exactly what I feel. Please share with me how you cope with due date, I really don't know how to go on!

DavisSR · 10-07-2003, 03:00 PM

Dear Powerpuff. How well I know the pain that you are going through right now. With tears in my eyes, I can say I don't know how I will make it through this month. My due date was October 24th. I've been trying to keep myself very busy because it is so hard to think. There are so many "I should be's" right now, it can be overwhelming.

Please know that I will be thinking of you.

Sheri

Emi · 10-09-2003, 10:57 PM

Hello, yes due dates, and the dates that you lost your precious Angel baby are hard, my lost date was Sept 27, and I sat and cried on that date, even after it's been 11 years, and on the Angel's due date I sit an cry also, the pain is still there, I don't know when or if it will go away, but I pray for us and the Precious Angels that are lost ...So many PCOS babies are lost, it's so unfair to us all.../hugs Emi

Hazel 36 · 10-11-2003, 08:21 AM

Dear Powderpuff
I know just how you are feeling. My Ellie's due date was 23 Oct, she was born at 27wks on 24 July and died on 20 August. I had recently started to have slightly 'better' days, but now I find that as the due date gets closer Im getting even more upset thinking about what might have been. I am trying to keep busy, but as far as Im concerned, the quicker this month is over, the better.
Thinking of you
Love Sue x

bep0602 · 10-28-2003, 12:45 AM

I had the same feelings as my due date approached in August. I had a miscarriage in January. I guess it kept feeling like it was building up to that date and I kept thinking how sad I would be. I was kinda planning on it I guess so it helped to have a plan to do to keep me busy. I didn't want to sit at home alone and think about it all day. I know what you mean about being sad, I feel the same way when I see the little Halloween costumes or the holiday baby outfits that are out now and the "Baby's first Christmas" bibs, ornaments, etc.

irishstjean · 10-28-2003, 01:17 AM

It's been 3 years since my last m/c but I had 5 of them in 3 years before that. There isn't anything I could say to ease what you are feeling - we grieve the way we love, and I know how much you all must have loved to feel the pain you have today - but know that all of us who have lost angelbabies share your burden.

sending warm thoughts and hugs to all
Jen