My beta came back

~Traci~ · 05-13-2003, 01:03 PM

negative. I knew it would b/c I've been spotting and started spotting red yesterday. I started full on bleeding last night. I'm waiting for my nurse to call me back after she talks to my dr. b/c he wants me to take a month of bcp's and I really don't want to. I've had some pretty serious reactions to every bcp that I've been on. She said that I might be able to take Provera instead. I guess I'm ok. I knew this was coming so it really was no surprise. I still layed on the couch and cried all night curled up in a ball. It was just so emotional.

Traci

dilara87 · 05-13-2003, 01:17 PM

{{{Traci}}} I am so sorry it didn't work, I hoped the numbers will go up ( it was higher then mine for the first beta). You still have a chance, girl, just give it a little more time

Take care of yourself and let the negative emotions go, it will get better, I promise.

Dilara

MaLee · 05-13-2003, 01:51 PM

(((((((Hugs))))))))) I am so sorry! Cry and let it all out!

Keeley · 05-13-2003, 01:55 PM

Traci - I am so sorry! I've been checking the boards non stop since yesterday afternoon....just waiting to see what your results are. I was so worried about you! I tried PMing you a couple of times but your box was full.

Again, I'm sorry you had to go through this. I'm praying you get your BFP very soon!

cmeredith · 05-13-2003, 01:57 PM

Traci....I am so sorry to hear that you are having to go through this. I am sending you lots of (((((((((hugs))))))))). I have been praying for you(over on our prayer thread). Hang in there.
Cristi Meredith

~Traci~ · 05-13-2003, 01:57 PM

Thanks Dilara

I was hoping they would have gone up too but I knew yesterday that they weren't going up and they were going down. I knew it was over when I started spotting red.

Thanks MaLee! I've cried so much that I just can't cry anymore.... I really appriciate the hugs

Thanks Keeley! I cleaned my box out, I didn't realize it was full until I just checked email.

Thanks for the prayers cmeredith! Maybe that's what's helping me get through this. I feel bad but I really haven't been as emotional as I thought I would be (even though I've been crying every night.....).

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And I have this funky eye thing going on! Yesterday my eye lid was really red, I just thought it was from crying so much. This morning when I woke up it was really puffy and really red. The only other time this has happened is when I've fell asleep w/ my contacts in after wearing them all day. I haven't worn them in about 2 weeks though. I guess I'll go to the dr. if it keeps up.

Traci

kcal · 05-13-2003, 02:50 PM

I am so sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you feel. I just had my 2nd m/c two weeks ago. I am always fighting tears back. It is very tough I know. I wish we did not have to go through this. Take care of yourself.

sugarbug · 05-13-2003, 03:25 PM

I'm so sorry

I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better- it just sucks. I hope you feel better soon. Take Care of yourself ((((hugs))))

BUG

ellialex · 05-13-2003, 05:30 PM

((((Hugs))))

I didnt know what happened. I am so sorry you are going through this. I hope you feel better soon and get pregnant as soon as you want to.

~Traci~ · 05-13-2003, 07:42 PM

Thanks everyone. I'm feeling alittle bit better.......except that it feels like my insides are falling out of me....

We have a plan of action now!

I just talked to my dr. He said I don't have to take BCP's. He said to come in on 6/16 for another beta and it - to start Provera. He said I'll still take Follistim except instead of starting me out on one amp I'll start out on 2 so I don't have to take it as long. He said he wouldn't do any testing unless I have recurrent m/c's. He said he was very confident that this would work since last cycle was the first real chance that I could get pg and I did. He said it's not like we're going for a year of O'ing and everything and I still didn't get pg or I just got pg now after a year of O'ing every month. That makes me feel better knowing that he thinks it can work. I also asked him if it's supposed to hurt this much and this much blood. (It was nothing and all of a sudden today it's alot....) He said that since I already had a thick lining (about 13.1 @ my last u/s) and since I was pg it would have gotten thicker that it should be like this. He said it should stop soon (like it would be like regular AF and stop after about 7 days).

So I'll go in on 6/16 for another beta and if -, start Provera. Pick up my cycle plan that day. Then I'll call on CD1 and go in on CD2 for an u/s and start the Follistim that day!

This is a better plan to me b/c I don't have to take nasty BCP's!!

MaLee · 05-14-2003, 03:47 AM

Glad to hear you avoided the BCP - I have learned to hate those things! Good Luck and I hope you continue to feel better.

dilara87 · 05-14-2003, 11:52 AM

Sounds like a good plan to me

Good luck, Traci, hopefully next time little embryos will stick harder!

Dilara

bunnyfuller · 05-14-2003, 12:50 PM

you sound very positive! well done for picking yourself up, your plan sounds a good one. I am dreading AF coming cos I know it is gonna be a bad one! but kinda want it in a way, so I can get closure.....

Nic xxxxx

~Traci~ · 05-14-2003, 01:08 PM

Thanks MaLee! I hate those things too and I refused to go on them in Jan also so my dr. already knew that I hated them!!

Thanks dilara! I hope they do too

Of course, now I'm terried that if they do I'll end up w/ a litter b/c I had 9 mature follicles when we triggered last time and I'll be doing the meds different so I don't have to take them as long this time.....but I'm not going to think about that until the time comes!

Thanks Nic! I immediately started bleeding the day I got my -. In fact, I started before I even knew it was - from the dr. I just knew it was going to be bad though b/c I had been spotting. At first mine was kinda heavy, then it was pretty light, then it was super heavy, and now it's lighter again. It's been 2 days so far. My RE thinks that it will last about as long as my regular AF. So yours will probably be right after you stop your prog sup. I wonder why the dr. wanted you to take them for longer. Is he going to retest your beta? Mine did until it was 0. Good Luck!

Traci