My dream

Sarah E. · 10-01-2004, 09:46 PM

I dream for a child of my own. I have waited a lifetime for a baby. My baby. I have an idea what you may look like. I see brown curly hair, green eyes and probably tall like my husband and myself. I see big cheeks and beautiful red lips. A chubby belly and a juicy gummy smile. I see a child who will be loved and nutured and protected. I miss you and we haven't even met. I have regrets. I wish I could have made it more possible to have started working for you earlier. But the man God blessed me with was introduced to me when I was a week shy of my 33rd birthday. That was God's plan. I prayed for my DH and I was blessed beyond belief. Lord knows how my heart hurts when I see my DH with his nephews and I see how loving and nuturing he is. I get panicked when I wish that he was holding our child instead. Sometimes I do not feel like a complete woman . The hair on my face, having 1 AF on my own per year!! The shin tags, the big gut . I ask many times why me and realize that self pity is pointless. I hear so many stories of PCOS women like myself having babies and think to myself - Could that ever happen to me? I would like to hear of stories of womenwho are like me who have overcome the odds. I am happy for you all. I ask that if I am not meant to have a baby that I can get peace. Also, that I can forgive myself.

STORMIEYES73 · 10-08-2004, 09:20 PM

Sarah,
What a beautiful dream!!! I pray that you are filled with peace as you wait for that beautiful, smart, blessed child whether she is from your womb or that special child that needs a friend, big sister, aunt, mentor, etc right now. She or he just may be waiting for you. I pray that you find the courage to forgive yourself for whatever it is that is pressing you down. Big Hugs to You. How grand that God introduced you to your DH ** like an early birthday gift, a lifetime gift.

Peaceful Journeys,
Linda S.

Sarah E. · 10-08-2004, 10:47 PM

God Bless you too Linda Thank you