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10-26-2006, 07:30 PM
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Today, Thursday, October 26 should have been my due date with our sweet baby Bryce Rylee. I'm struggling. On top of all this, af showed in full force today. I don't understand why all of this has to be happening right now. I feel like my heart is being physically ripped from my body. I miss my baby so much. Seeing everyone around me having all their babies that are happy and healthy and they had no problems during their pregnancies...it's just getting to be too much for me. The smallest thing has been setting me off into a fit of tears all week. Just when I think there couldn't possibly be any more tears left, they start all over again. I stood in the shower this morning, looked down at where I should have this beautiful and huge pregnant belly and just sobbed. I'm absolutely beside myself. 
The day here started out sunny and bright and has now turned dark and very cloudy. Fits my mood I suppose.
I don't know what to do today. I took the day off work because I just couldn't handle that there would be babies at work today when there normally aren't. My boss was amazingly understanding. I'm sitting around...I feel like I should be doing something really special today but I don't know what. I do know that I want to get some white roses today in honor of Bryce, since I was given a white rose when I left the hospital that day. I thought of releasing balloons, but it's too cold and they wouldn't go very far. Tanner said he just wants to go out to eat and just be there for each other. That's understandable, I just feel like I should be doing more. I don't want Bryce to think that we don't miss her......I want this to be a special day in her honor, I just don't know what to do.
Bryce, my sweet baby, your Mommy and Daddy love you so very much. We miss you terribly and we want more than anything for you to be here with us, in our arms today. We keep trying to remind ourselves that you are busy helping God in Heaven because He must have needed you badly to take you from us so soon. We will see you again soon and when that day comes, you can show us around Heaven and tell us all about what you've been up to. Bryce, please watch over your Daddy and I. We miss you so much and it makes us so sad that you aren't here with us. I love you baby and I know that your Daddy does too. We'll never forget you and I live every day for you, in your honor. I love you Bryce Rylee. Mommy loves you.
Manders
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Our baby Bryce Rylee could only stay 7 weeks and 5 days before going to meet Jesus to be one of His angels.
3-15-06
Our twin baby boys went to Heaven together 5-7-07
Gavin James and Brogan Ryker 19 weeks 3 days
They died and ended up saving my life. They are forever my heroes.
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10-26-2006, 07:37 PM
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| | Missing Daniel & Sweetpea
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I'm so sorry Manders. Mark and I will remember baby Bryce in our prayers today.
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10-26-2006, 07:40 PM
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I'm so sorry Manders. Mark and I will remember baby Bryce in our prayers today.
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10-26-2006, 07:42 PM
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Rose of My Heart
By Deborah Slattery
There was a day, not too long ago,
when the Lord above searched the Earth below.
He was looking for a woman, a chosen one,
for a monumental task that had to be done.
He had a precious gift he wanted to bestow
on one whose heart had that certain glow.
He found that heart, filled with courage and love,
and summoned an angel from up above.
"This is the woman I have chosen to bear,
that white rose for the garden, she'll tend it with care."
So the white rose was planted and tended and loved,
and thankfully treasured as a gift from above.
But the time soon came for the blossoms to show
and the Lord knew it was time for the white rose to go.
It was time to return to the garden from which it came
after growing on earth and receiving its name.
So the angel gently pulled the rose out of the woman's heart
but when the rose was removed, the thorns pierced a part.
And the pain of the parting brought the woman to her knees,
where she rocked and cried and begged the Lord, "Please..."
"Please don't take from me the rose of my heart,
for I have loved it from the very start."
In grieving anguish, a tear in her eye,
she raised her hands to heaven and cried "Why Lord, Why?"
"Why give me this white rose just to take it away?"
and bowing her head, she heard the Lord say...
"The plan of the white rose is not yours to know.
This is as far as its Earthly journey goes.
But know in the future on some distant day,
you will be reunited in Heaven to stay.
For the white rose is given to hearts filled with loved,
to be carefully raised for the garden above.
And know that each sparkling tear you shed
nourishes the rose in its garden bed."
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10-26-2006, 07:48 PM
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manders hugs to you and tanner am thinking of u 2day xxxxxxx
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10-26-2006, 07:55 PM
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manders hugs to you and tanner am thinking of u 2day xxxxxxx
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10-27-2006, 03:50 AM
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Manders you know I love ya girl...Patrick and I will be thinking of you during this difficult time! you know where I am if you need me..
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10-27-2006, 04:48 AM
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Manders, my prayers are with you today.
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10-29-2006, 05:08 AM
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Mander's, I am thinking of you. I didn't see this until today, but my heart and my thoughts are with you.
What did you and dh decide to do? I am sure whatever it was had special meaning, and I hope brought some peace to your heart.
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10-29-2006, 12:45 PM
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((Manders)). I hope you were able to find some way to honor your baby, even if it was just to talk about her and your dreams for her.
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10-30-2006, 09:20 AM
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Manders. How are you? I havn't been on here for a while.
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Manders. How are you? I havn't been on here for a while.
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Manders. How are you? I havn't been on here for a while.
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Manders. How are you? I havn't been on here for a while.
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10-31-2006, 04:51 AM
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Manders i know how hard this journey is....everyday i get up and continue this path....some days i can walk without a stumble....some days....i can barely walk....I too look at my body and imagine the image that should be there....it hurts....it makes me sad...and i know its ok to feel the way we do....I hope tomorrow when you continue the journey....you get a little further....lots of hugs your way....
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