One year ago today, at exactly this time, I was on my way from my OB's office to the hospital because I had bulging membranes. I was so terrified, and it took forever for hubby to get there. They put me in a tilted bed to try to get the membranes back in. They kept saying that Rivi was going to die (except for one nurse who gave us hope). Even then, I thought everything was going to be okay.
Tomorrow's the one-year anniversary of my cerclage. If we'd gotten the good peri first, instead of the crappy, arrogant one, I could have gotten my cerclage a day earlier. I wonder if that would have kept the infection away from Rivi?
I wonder if, when I went to my OB the WEEK before, if he'd done an U/S as I requested, would he have noticed the funneling? Maybe he wouldn't have dismissed the mucousy discharge, maybe I could have gotten the cerclage before my cervix was fully open. Rivi could have lived then.
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Get involved in animal rescue. You won't be sorry. Your heart may break, there may be times when your eyes are red-rimmed for days. You may lose faith in the goodness of people, but your spirit will be renewed by the resilience of those you save. It isn't easy, but it's worth it. I promise you, you will be forever changed.
Viv, I'll be thinking about you and praying for you today, as always.
Hugs,
Adrianne
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*hugs* Today will be hard. Please tell me how you cope. Daniel's 1 year will be October 4th, and I have no idea how I'm going to handle it
Take care of yourself today.
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Daniel Benjamin born/died October 4, 2004. Ari Lev born/died May 21, 2005.
We're remembering Rivi with you today...just get through those 'what if's' the best you can..i know they're hard...
take care
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TTC#4 w/Injectibles-IVF conversion/CERCLAGE/6.2mo bedrest/emerg c-sec at 38wks
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Oh Sweetie! My heart aches for you. From your posts I have come to know you a little bit, and I hate to see you hurting so badly. I wish there was something I could do to make you feel better. I think Rivi is watching over you and Smoochie. He feels your love for him.
Suzie
__________________ DX April 17, 2002
"How does one become a butterfly?" she asked pensively.
"You must want to fly so much that you are willing to give up being a caterpillar."
Renee, Rivi's birthday will be 10/6, the day he died is 10/7. I've got a few more sad days between. As far as how I'm handling it, I'm a crying mess. The VP just snapped at me about something, and I've been crying ever since.
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I'm so sorry, Viv. No one should have to go through this. I'm praying for you today and I just know your beautiful Rivi is up in Heaven smiling down on his mommy and on all of us.
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Never TTC -- Straight to Adoption
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My first sad one-year anniversary 
*hugs* Today will be hard. Please tell me how you cope. Daniel's 1 year will be October 4th, and I have no idea how I'm going to handle it 
