I've really been feeling like crap lately. I feel like I'm not worthy enough to bother taking care of myself. Sometimes I think that I'm a great person...but I don't feel like I love and respect myself. I'm this shell of a person with a big void in the middle. I know I need to get out of this. And I know how...kinda. I just need to start. So, that's why I'm posting....as a kick in the butt to get started. So, here are some things I'm going to do that I know will make me feel better:
-no more killing time with MSN and soulseek
-pilates 3 times per week
-meditation or Reiki daily
-take my meds more diligently
-get caught up with school work
-spend my free time reading, writing, cross-stitching...anything but computer time! (well, except for email and coming here!)
-I also want to eat more healthfully. I'm not that bad now, but I know I need more veggies. It's hard to cook for 1 person!
__________________ -diagnosed October 2002
-Meds: Alesse, metformin, Cytomel, Wellbutrin
-light therapy with a goLITE for seasonal depression
-yoga & meditation almost daily, because it makes me feel good
Good for you! Especially on the exercise part, my doc said it is great for depression as it releases feel good hormones.
I also find journaling helps.
hmmmm now if only I could start to eat better
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Yes! Definetly journaling. That helps quite a bit. I don't do it enough though.
I'm hoping I can stick with the exercise. I did feel better before when I was going to the gym. I might try using the treadmill once I get started with the pilates. Baby steps...
I feel like I'm not worthy enough to bother taking care of myself. Sometimes I think that I'm a great person...but I don't feel like I love and respect myself. I'm this shell of a person with a big void in the middle.
That was my mantra for what seems to be eons. Needless to say, I can totally relate to how you feel/felt. *Hugs*
I use to think that because I was overweight, I was less of a person, and in return, people treated me as such...rather I allowed them to treat me that way. I use to think I was unworthy of the very thing(s) I desired the most: To be loved and accepted for me...But in retrospect, I didn't love and accept me so how could I expect others to? Better yet, recognize when they did?
Don't think that you are a great person, know that you are a great person!
I look at PCOS as my blessing and my curse...My blessing because it has humbled me and made me appreciative of things that most people take for granted. It has been a character builder if nothing more. My curse because I have to work extra hard to feel "normal" But who ever said life is easy? We all have our crosses to bare...
The sun is shining some where, even when it rains...You're still here, and that is a blessing in itself...What gets me through the tough times is knowing that it could always be worse. Acknowledge what you are feeling, but don't let it define who you are
enligh10dwon - Thanks for replying. It's nice to know I'm not alone. I'm starting to get out of this a bit...but still working. It's hard to accept who I was, when I dislike that person so much. But, I know it's part of who I am....and I was that way for a reason. I'll get there eventually...hopefully soon.
No problem Hope...Glad to hear you are coming out of your rut...In the few weeks that I have been a member of this site, I've received so much inspiration, so it's only fair that I too inspire when I can...
I know exactly what you mean when you said it's hard to accept who you were, but it is necessary to do that in order to become who you are destined to be...You are making the right steps towards getting there and as long as you believe in you, others have no choice but to follow suit. I believe you will get through what ever it is that weighs on your soul and you will come out stronger then when you went in. It's ok to be discontent with the person you were, she in turn will make you more appreciative of the person you will become. Let her be your motivating factor on your qwest!
Looking forward to the day your screen name reads hopeFUL
Hey....thanks for that message. It really made sense. One of my friends (kinda mentor) said something similar. I know it's right, it's just hard to get it started. I'll get there though. Thanks again.
I agree, she should change her screen name! You ARE NOT hopeless! There is always hope even when you can't see it!
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my kick in the butt 
