Tonight for no real reason it just hit me we have be trying for almost 2 years and the depression hit me like a ton of bricks i was crying uncontrolably. I am also not sure the meds are working i didnt ovulate last month so it seems that i diet and the meds may never work my heart is just braking cuz i only thing i have ever wanted is to be a mommy and i am not sure that is going to happen. we cant afford to adopt so its just a hard time in life and the sad thing is i cant even have a pet where i live dont allow pets so yeah life just sucks
just an update i had lunch with a friend (who is going to give birth in a couple weeks or sooner) i thought i would be depressed to see her but it worked out just the opposite i feel better she is the one person i know that is having a baby who doesnt make me feel like i am less cuz i cant have one it was really nice to be around some one that is about to be a mom who is still senitive to others feelings i just wanted to share my silver linning in case some one else feels that no understands and the everyone is insenitive just to show there are people out there who do get it and try to be senitive even if they are at the happiest point in life they know u are not so they dont brag about it
good luck all with your depression and baby dust to all that want it
Carea
Im so sorry you are having such a hard time TTC! You will be in my prayers. I hope things start to get better for you. It does show a lot of strong personality that you were able to meet with your pg friend and not be upset! That could be a very hard thing! Best of luck and BABY DUST!!!!
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thanks i am feeling better now all my life i have tryed to not let things i cant control hurt me but i have days i fall apart and i am just glad to hear i am not the only one that has pcos and the problems that go with it just nice to have friends to talk to that understand
my pcos dont get me down much today oh boy 
so yeah life just sucks
